Follow your heart and seek your dreams:)

31st Jan' 12 The novelty of a new life:)

2012-01-31T13:30:00.000+08:00

HI ! :)

This is the last day of January in 2012.

This is the first day of reporting to Junior Colleges.

This is the day where I am waiting for-the day to think of how to continue on.

Due to many "surprises",I have finally come to a conclusion- no matter how things are going to be from now,tough or easy, sad or happy, big or small, bored or meaningful, I 'll just take it on!

Life has been pretty plain and dull these few months even though I have gone out a number of times.

The best message I knew was that I got posted to NYP. At the beginning, it was definitely heartbreaking because that wasn't my 1st choice. I was super muddleheaded at that moment and just couldn't accept the fact that SRJC ain't the final answer to my prayer.( I have been hoping to get in*)Ya, and supposedly knowing myself being in a state of madness & confusion ( because I actually wanted to appeal but in the end, NO!) I kept cool afterwards and did not really get worked up. Perhaps, it is heaven's will. After a while , I GOT IT! Anything will do. I am happy:) Unless you try, if not you won't know how life is in Polytechnic right? So, with that , I became eager to spread the news or maybe report to those friends, relatives of mine about it!

I AM SATISFIED, :) Here's my feeling--> 我选择的路不一定好走可是还是仍然地接受了.毕竟这是为以后打算的,所以不能放弃!

HAHA! :D

Seeing people wearing school uniforms going to school,the memories just flow into my mind,sadly, I am still stuck at home.Well, there are love sickness, home sickness, what about the yearn to go back to school?

Human just need wishful thoughts once in a while.

AFTER MANY ROUNDS OF THINKING, I might enjoy the different daily routines in campus, the new habits to cultivate and the head-scratching challenges,and all these could spice up my life even better than just STUDYING like in the past 14years :)

JIAYOUS!:)

MY DREAM WILL COME TRUE SOMEDAY:)

OKAY, this post is long enough for now, so shall update again!

All the best to everyone^^

SMIL3Z~

FIRST DAY:) 1st Jan '12

2012-01-01T16:45:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!:)

HELLO, I am back here:) A new year ahead, isn't that great?:D
So what's your resolutions for year 2012? ^^

Let me begin my update with mine yup:)

a) Grow tall:) * I'm JUST TOO SHORT:(
b) Pass with flying colors for my 'O' levels!:)
c) Be a better girl, daughter, and student.

一,我能快乐的生活.
二,大家都开心过日子.
三,我们都能学会照顾自己.(誰敢动到我身边的人,不管你是亲戚,朋友或是陌生人,你一定不会好过.)

HEHE:P That's all:)

These few days I have been having trouble with my phlegm.Its annoying and I have to keep clearing my throat now and then. However, that is a trivial matter which doesn't really affect my mood too much.I hope to get well soon too!

Gonna start reading and spend my day wisely:) I wish I could finish reading this book(below) by today. YUP, TODAY!:D Indeed a great expectation for myself:P I'll make it an effective reading though, unlike what my mother always say, 走马观花. I promise myself to, so yeah, shall stop here.Till then ^^

SMIL3Z~

Last day:) 31st Dec' 2011

2011-12-31T17:40:00.004+08:00

How are you going to spend your last day of year 2011?

Hi!:D Countdown is the word for today.We're all anticipating for the New Year to arrive, RIGHT? Hehe:P 2012, I am ready to accept you in my life and look forward to a New YOU because I had enough of 2011. I guess something different might propel me to handle challenges in a better way so I hope that things will go smoothly from now on. YEAH:P

Talking about last day of the year actually makes no difference to me. For me, it seems to be just another day.I don't feel that high actually.This year has been a tough year, but I do have some time to relax, so it doesn't matter anymore.I know, I learn, I understand.

Human beings are all fickleminded. That kind of mixed feelings are too confusing and too difficult to comprehend. The best way is to cool down and don't think of anything and give yourself a break.But, when you think like that, you're indeed not letting yourself off from all the hurt and tear.So,you choose what you want. You're not heartless that is why all types of words,faces,sounds,scenes are affecting you.Especially, when you can't let go and they are bugging you.In reality, the truth is always cruel. Sometimes, its ridiculous to an extent where nobody will believe. However the fact can't be change.The guilt will stay forever,the hurt you caused will not be forgiven, and lastly, the parties involved will be attached to the memories. Forgive and Forget? That is only a saying,because how many of them do? I wanted to, but the thing is, when the glass is broken, it is. the cracks can't be glued up again.Do you understand?The only reaction is to IGNORE!:) That is what I have learnt in 2011.

Emotional stuffs are just part and parcel in life. Live with it and you will get the hang of it. Don't worry,throw away the past and look forward for the new ones.Have you ever thought when you crack your brain for all those nonsensical people and their rubbish talks,you're actually wasting your memory space? Those are not about reminiscences but are just junk!There is no need to be nostalgic :) Move on and stand on your own.

Yeah, I shall stop ranting about that already, its a pretty long post and I should stop. Okay, wish that everyone enjoys today! I am cooping at home today and will start afresh when the clock strikes at 00:00 Haha:D I'll update this blog again^^

当你在顶嘴,只是想要找回公道.
当你在骂人,只是想要为他好.
当你被批评,只是想要他别说了.
当你在流泪,只是想要有人陪.
但你在犯错,只是想要有人原谅.
当你被冤枉,只是想要老天帮忙.
当你什么都了解,你会发现,可靠的只有你自己!

SMIL3Z~

Homeward bound:) 24th Dec 2011

2011-12-24T09:39:00.001+08:00

Merry Christmas!:)

Good morning people!:) It has been a week since I came back from my China trip.Pretty awesome, I meant, really, it was ENJOYABLE! I couldn't care less about Singapore when I am there, in my hometown.This sounds heartless right? Well, that was logical, I supposed so. Going abroad is to relax and have some fun to unwind for awhile, isn't it? Lets talk about the places I went.

Basically, My grandmother, brothers and I kept going to and fro between仕头村, 文昌市铺前镇.

We also went to 锦山 ,抱萝, 山后坡村 and 海口-大润发超市.

The first destination named above was my hometown so I stayed there for 2 weeks, in between, we traveled to my uncle's house in 抱萝 for 2 days one night trip.

The places aren't very much urbanized because I noticed the backward situation along my way in the motorbike and bus. Anyway, I LOVE TO GO THERE!

Alright, lets the pictures talk.

My house from top view.

Chilli padi from my aunt's farm.

My birthday cake:)

Pigs at somebody's house in 铺前.

My house :)

Yeah, thats about it.

Okay, I shall end here.Hope everyone enjoy this holiday and this year is coming to an end soon.

ALL THE BEST YUP! Stay tune for the next post:p

SMIL3Z~

HI

2011-12-03T08:33:00.000+08:00

Hello, Its been a pretty long time since I updated this space. I am having holiday like many others and no doubt its a long break. I had really no idea when my holiday has started but I am quite enjoying it with simple things I do.Basically,I have been doing what human can do - eat, sleep, read and go out. Nothing much though. The best thing is that I read. I would not want to be so unfamiliar with what I have been doing for the past 16 years. Being "Rusty" ain't good for me. Reading is fun but another motive is to kill time. It might dry you out but the most is to take a nap or doze off with that book. One stupid case is that I had thrown my temper at books. This sounds crazy,right?

Okay, I just hope everyone is doing fine and making full use of your holiday. Normally, people would hope to get abroad, wouldn't they? Haha, I am hoping for that too and it came true, really, this time. After this year, I can't confirm If I am going anywhere out of Singapore next year. Later at midnight, I would be on the plane to China(海南).Back to hometown is great even though some people would prefer other places like Hongkong, Australia and so on. Anywhere is alright but my favourite is still back there^^

Last but not least, I wish all of us would enjoy this holiday and have a nice day.
Everyday is a FRESH START!:)

3rd Dec' 11
SMIL3Z~

What kills your boredom? 30th Aug'11

2011-08-30T15:20:00.003+08:00

I read a book. Yeah, a book! It's been ages since I read a book. I do not read books often because I am not addicted to reading and I don't squeeze out time for reading.Once I have the time, which is seldom, I would maybe get a book from the store or my little library at home to flip through the pages.I am so happy because I had read a book and that was within 3 days. The book is ..........

This is a book that kept me active. I yawned at times while reading but I just could not put down this book. It is simply awesome! I am just so excited about a book maybe because I never really had a chance to read a book with seriousness and just so focused on it since school has started this year.Great yup!

Well, once I read a book, I would just chuck it to my little library at home. Next, you can find me doing nothing. There are textbooks and notes for me to read but there ain't motivation. On top of that, I have been eating and eating, going to put on weight soon.

HAHA, anyway, find something to do, if not you really gonna get bored! Something meaningful yeah!
Study won't kill, but boredom will! (this could be my motivation but my growling stomach matters most) :P

I am going to have my lunch now, bye! ^^

SMIL3Z~

ANGER. 21st August '11

2011-08-21T13:53:00.001+08:00

I had a fight with my younger brother(12 yrs old ). That was exciting but not funny!obviously, It was embarrassing to fight at this age (16). I am forever rebellious and he is always stubborn. Nobody can get into my way because I had enough. I think these fights,quarrels and spouting of nonsense are what I have been influenced by the environment I am living in.

No matter what, I would go crazy when I am really angry. One's patience is limited. Mine has reached the top.He cried and retaliated just because the cane accidentally "TOUCHED" his eyes. I didn't do it on purpose. He's really getting on my nerves.Forget it, I always feel guilty when his tears flow down. I am a human okay. I apologized but what to do when he just couldn't reflect whats wrong with him. I always thought of whats wrong with myself, now I know.

My bad temper is the root of all these problems.Who have I learn all these from? Why can't I negotiate peacefully with him? Am I really pressurized? Or is this natural? Whatever it is, I guessed nobody knows what going on with me because I am looking for the answer as well .Just one advice to those who are not feeling good right now for whatever reason. DO NOT THROW YOUR TEMPER because IT DOES YOU NO GOOD. I am am now cooling down. The game would still go on when my father comes back. Then another war will roll in. Am I prepared? Hmmmm, OH GOD! Please stop crying! WTH! I AM REALLY IN DEEP TROUBLE. bye... gonna stay calm.

SMIL3Z~

A happy day. 8th Aug' 11

2011-08-08T19:02:00.000+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SINGAPORE!:)

I enjoyed today's programs. Greendale got talents'11 (GGT )was quite fascinating.
Good job people!:)
I want to do well and I believe I can:) It has been a busy period recently, I just thought about taking a break but I know that can't be a long one. Persevere!^^ A lot of people care for me and definitely, I would not let myself down. I had once failed to do my best.Now I would not just say but really work to the end.That is, giving more than what everyone is doing and achieve what I want.Hopefully, I would stop procrastinating. :D
Good luck everyone!

SMIL3Z~

TOUGH FIGHT:) 30July'11

2011-07-30T16:01:00.002+08:00

Amidst the preparation for 'O' levels examination, I have squeezed some time out for this blog. I had to pour out my thoughts. Although it has been quite a while since I posted, I have not lost touch with this social network. Right now, I am enjoying my school days because I am looking forward to the last day of my 'O' level exams. Don't worry anyway. It may a tough fight for everyone and this year seems to be passing so fast that hardly anyone can catch up with it but I still believe all of us can chase our dreams and get to where we want. The confidence in you has to be maintained. No matter what, there isn't much time left to your big day, so lets work hard and focus! I will definitely do my best till the bitter end! :) JIAYOUS!^^

SMIL3Z~

LOVELY DAY:) 16th Jun' 11

2011-06-16T22:03:00.000+08:00

HI! :)

Taken @ ECP :>

These few days were "great".I slept only for 4 hours of sleep on Tuesday night and 5 hours yesterday.I can't believe I am still alive!Seriously, I was starving since this morning till like 8 at night. This was my first time not having breakfast and lunch. I went out with empty stomach to find somebody this morning. I treasured those moments and that kicked my restless mood away. Although, I was sleepy in the afternoon, there's somebody to accompany me. I could sense the warmth and sweetness.I really love it so much that it brings me lots of laughter and smile :)

I got to replenish all the energy I have lost and get back on track. There's so much for me to do. I must not procrastinate anymore. Alright, I shall end this post here then. GOOD LUCK PEOPLE!^^

SMIL3Z~

DAY OUT:) 11th Jun' 11

2011-06-11T23:34:00.001+08:00

This is awesome! I went out for 2 days.

Today wasn't that bad though.I had some fun despite losing my temper during the early part of the day.
Visited Grandma then off to Tampines. Nice day with Baby brother and Grandmother. Back home around 8plus.

I Went to meet OngLin and the rest @ ECP yesterday.Its been quite a long time since I see how amazing the beach was.We took "bus 11" after bus 43.
Halfway down the areas in ECP, Jiaru, Amelia and me saw Zixian and JingYing. U-turn back to the Area C.Sigh... But nevermind, we chat along the way. Luckily it wasn't very sunny. Rent the bike whilst seeing Chrislyn they all by coincidence.Jiaru and me cycled to Area G then.Nice scenery down there.ECP is so much better than PRP.

During our ride,Jiaru and me met with a strange guy.He was rollerskating. The special thing was that he was moving backwards! :P He laughed at us too, joke manxz! We reached Area G only after 45 mins- 1hr:) How great right?! Cycling is fun^^Didn't really spend much time with OngLin manxz. Anyway, they were crazy. Many things happened. Good and bad, we enjoyed after all!

Stayed around till 8Plus.JingYing, Jiaru and me went to return bike.Such a silly Bargain I swear! The auntie somewhat laughed at us.We went late and was overcharged. Supposed to pay more but the guy said $4.I asked for discount but he insisted $4.I told the auntie $3.90. Easier to calculate and divide among 3 people. No choice so she agreed.Then she ownself tell the guy," 10 cents only" - something along that line.

HSH with The 2 girls. I ain't scared with their company.Its late at night and 'know its somehow scary. :x
As I said, I didn't go so far for a very long time and a little unfamiliar with that place already.Hope the rest also had fun! I can say its NOT BAD YUP!:) Love them all!:) OngLin's cookies was YUMMY!:P

^^
SMIL3Z~

Back!:) 3rd June' 11

2011-06-03T17:06:00.000+08:00

I ain't motivated today! :(

NOthing was done. My mind was telling me to do work but I just feel so lethargic.
I spent around 1 hour plus to eat, eat and just eat! >< Yet, I ain't energetic enough to start writing,reading and DOING.Friday should be a day where I am free to do what I want. Now, my mind is so blank! Its a waste of time. Sometimes, I just feel that I am really dumb. Why can't I have the sense of urgency? URGH>:(
Perhaps its just not my day! Usually I can find the reason,the time,the work for myself. The confusion in me really killed me. Some would say its just an excuse. I need to get my mood back quickly. ~~One word~~ : ~~STUBBORN.~~

STAY HAPPY:)

SMIL3Z~

Sneeze:( 15th May' 11

2011-05-15T19:13:00.001+08:00

My grandfather's art piece. I was impressed when he showed it to me. :)

Today is Sunday. I kept sneezing.This is so terrible!I had no idea why too.I am just way too bored and can't get away from the computer. I wanna study but the sight of those papers and books freaking worn me out. I just hope my throat would not be so pain.Seriously, I am too silly. Exams are ending. I could have just buck up and finish up my revision and stop the nonsense.Whatever it is, I am just wasting time, ( like now). I promise myself I would do well and study... Today is such a disappointment. Gonna pray hard that I would not fail any subject. LAST SHOT- Maths paper 2, Chemistry and Science MCQ. I don't wanna fool around anymore, cut the crap, bye.Its dinnertime and I am going to revise soon! Wish that this "last min" would help. Nightz people! Sweet Dreamz:D

GOOD LUCK!^^V

SMIL3Z~

加油！8th May'11

2011-05-08T17:19:00.001+08:00

Yorhxz!:)

I went to cousin's house today.
This could be a break for me.

During this period, many students are struggling between tests, exams and personal life.
I hope that they are coping well and would be able to score good grades.
This is not the only year that seems to be "flying" fast.
Perhaps it is the thought that we always have.We,human rush and rush and rush.
We rush to school and back home.
We rush so that our work can be done as fast as possible.
We rush because we have to spend time wisely.
We rush for many more reasons.
Literally, we are going crazy over this and that.
You may not agree with me but this is the fact for some people, including me.

Luckily, there are people who concern about me and take care of me.
They are the wonderful "happy pills" in my life.
The precious memories we had were unforgettable.
Be it families or friends or somebody who is special to me, they are really great to me.
Even myself. Sometimes I can be moody and high.All depends on my mood.
I just wish that nothing would go wrong and I could overcome any odds.

I WILL DO MY BEST & ACHIEVE WHAT I WANT:)
JIAYOUS!^^
加油！D

Some pictures:

Baby brother and brother-->They placed the Beyblade in the tray of water and freeze it.
Then, he has to melt the ice to take it out.

The ice has melted.

Cousin brother and brother are playing games...
End:)

Another thing, the weather is just so hot!:X
I know I am so random:P
GOOD LUCK YEAH!^^V

SMIL3Z~

Farewell party. 29th April'11

2011-04-29T22:17:00.001+08:00

HELLO! ♥
Now that I have the time, I shall just post a short one !:)
My school days were intensive- From morning till 5.30pm daily. (except Friday)

Today ( 29/4), I attended the farewell party which was organised by my Orchestra Juniors.
Being a senior I felt that I had learn a lot in Orchestra.
All these while, I made many mistakes but I knew I could improve.
With my Juniors, Orchestra became a whole.
Without them and the others, Greendale Orchestra would not have come this far.
I am sure that they would achieve much more than what Orchestra is today.
Thanks for the memorable day specially made for us, and I will not forget them!^^

SYF was over and we had an unforgettable expeience:)
The process of learning is worthy and I will always remember and continue to love music:)

JIAYOU!:D

SMIL3Z~

SMIL3Z~ 27th Mar '11

2011-03-27T20:53:00.000+08:00

27th Mar '11
Spent my morning in Jurong Bird Park(JBP)!
In all my 16 years in Singapore, this is the 1ST time I had been to JBP .
Well, I was just too lucky to go there because this was my baby bro's school event.
I went along with him ,together with my grandmother.
It was awesome!
Esp, when the bird named" Amigo" talked and sang.
The Magic Show was funny too!
I saw Penguins as well! Hehe:P
Afterall, it was a fruitful experience:)
HAPPY!^^

26th Mar '11

School in the morning then headed to cousin's house.
After that, I met up with A & E.
Lastly, I spent my evening with J.
HSH then!:)

SWEET SATURDAY INDEED! ^^
J filled me with laughter manxz!:D

SMIL3Z~

KK hospital. 20th Mar' 11

2011-03-20T19:39:00.002+08:00

Sunday! :)

Accompanied Baby bro to KK Hospital:(
His cough irritated my mother so she told my grandmother to send him to the hospital.
After a long wait... Finally it was his turn to meet the doctor.
Its noon time and I was hungry!
After getting his medicine, we went to Kopitiam to have our lunch.
Walked to Little India MRT station and dropped off at Hougang.

It was raining...
Bought Sushi and Subway.
HSH after all that food shopping!
Halfway in the bus the ride, we saw our father boarding up the same bus:)
Surprisingly, it was my first time buying Subway.
I did not know how awesome it was, I did not know how worthy it was to have it.
When I bought it, I was like sucha blur girl canxz!
It cost me $8.80!
Too much okay!
Shocked:X
I had it, though it was not that fantastic but is palatable:)
Such a mammoth size sandwich! I didn't finish it because I bought the footlong type:)
The leftover was dumped to my father~
Well, pretty full after having that.
Dinner don't seem that wonderful because my stomach could not hold that much anymore:[
I need to drink more water for better digestion.
It seems that more people are getting sick nowadays, Take care yup!^^

Alright some pictures to keep this post alive!

This week's :

Today's :

HAVE A NICE DAY PEOPLE!

Holiday is endinggg:>

ENJOY^^

I feel that sometimes I can do homework with zeal but that soon petered out.

Well, I will strive to the end no matter what!

SMIL3Z~

STUDY . 14th Mar '11

2011-03-14T15:42:00.000+08:00

Monday-14th Mar '11

JAPAN WILL BE SAFE & STEADY ! :)

First day of Mar holiday, I could not think of anything better to do so I study.
Distractions led me to being unfocused.
Eating and walking around.
Amid studying, my mind was all about J.
Then, headed towards to my baby brother.
Coached him with his assessment book.
Finally, I am done with him!.

Unfortunately, quarrel between baby bro and brother was so irritating.
I went over and solve the conflict.
Such petty matter, it was all about a television.
There's nothing nice about a TV, why doe kids wanna watch so much of TV programs?!
I don't remember watching or pehaps being so addicted to it when I was young.
Well, too much of it would not be a great thing either.
Everyone is different, I just hope that my brother would concentrate more on his studies.
Television becomes an addiction , an entertainment or Motivation?!
Forget about that, it doesn't apply to me, period.

I wished there is no Mar Holiday...
I have to keep myself going on...
Just a few more weeks to go and I would be free!
No more CCA then!
These times, these moments are indeed crucial to me,
for I am going to take my 'O' Level soon~
Though I had taken it before( MT exam), I did not reach my goal.
This time, and only ONE chance, I will really DO MY BEST!
How?!

I went for my camp last week.Camp was fun and inspirational!
What ruined the mood was all that rain and complaints.
All has been experienced before but we just did not think of it at that moment.
Camp taught me to grow up and think for my future in a right way...
There is no failure but learning experiences.

Yeah, it all depends on whether if I trust myself in achieving the BIG DREAMZ that I had!

SMIL3Z~

ACTIVE. 6th Mar '11

2011-03-06T20:58:00.001+08:00

I realized I have been active this weekend.

Today, (Sunday 6th Mar '11)

Woke up around 4A.M.
Out around 8A.M Plus.
Reached Potong Pasir and saw my Ahyi's friend.
Both of us went to meet my Ahyi:)

Ready for the Brisk walk after a warm up.
I had fun chatting with my Cousin during the walk!:)
Went with them to have breakfast.
Played Basketball together with my Ahyi's friend's son too!
Super exciting and cute!
Kids are kids, really. They are primary school kids.
Funny to the max!
I threw the ball and it bounced( accidentally) on the friend's son's head.
he had no reaction, perhaps the ball was soft, it doesn't hurt much.
The hilarious part was he was looking outside.
My Uncle said :"你在看女孩子啊？”
HAHA, I laughed:) - Such a joke:)
Mac for lunch then back to Ahyi's house.
Around 4P.M, down to the park and played Badminton with cousin.
Shiok alright! It was drizzling and we moved a few times in and out.( to the void deck)
At last, I had a ride on a motorbike home!
THAT WAS THE BEST^^V
That ride was quite different from how I experienced in China.
I need not wear a helmet in China,but in Singapore, I must.
I felt the strong wind blowing on me, super cooling.
I felt the "jump" when there is a bump!
I was afraid I would fall and fly out.... :D
Luckily, my Uncle told me how to balance myself .
Afterall, I really had an enjoyable day with them.

Yesterday, Saturday ( 5th Mar '11)

Down to meet J around 5A.M Plus on Saturday.
Off to basketball court around 6A.M.
Exercised on my own while waiting for the sky to brighten up.
Though morning has yet arrived, I saw People going to the market with their trolleys.
Slowly and patiently I waited, damn boring but time flies.
I thought the court would be opened, but it was still locked when it was going to be 7A.M.
I thought how silly was I to stay there alone, almost doze off and vexed while waiting....
Walked around and there the minimart uncle told me the court would be open around 7.30A.M.
Sat on the bench in the nearby playground...
I saw bird droppings :X
I saw people still lining up to buy their groceries.
The helpful and kind Uncle and Auntie helped me called the cleaner.
The reply I got was，" 时间还没到，待会儿他会来开门。”
Finally，I had the basketball court on my own.
Great to the the first.
Basketball really can make you perspire^^
Exhausted by 8.30A.M Plus and went back home!

End~

SMIL3Z~

Haha. 4th Mar '11

2011-03-04T22:46:00.002+08:00

4th March '11

(Friday)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO EUGENE.YEO! :)

You really made my day today!
Though we're just on the phone but I like!:)
Have a nice day okay!
Korkor ah KorKor, stop scolding me, be a good teacher yup!:P
生日快乐！
SweetDreamz:D

One of the times when I was back in China playing firecrackers:)

Shall go to bed now! Bye^^V

SMIL3Z~

when boredom strikes... 27th Feb '11

2011-02-27T16:13:00.000+08:00

WHEN BOREDOM STRIKES......

I am really at loss of what to do...
I can't make myself to take a pen and start doing work.
I lost the mood to do so.

ALL I CAN THINK is to...
Play with lighter...
I guessed I can feel the emptiness in the heart of a smoker.
Just lack of cigarettes....
If not I would have smoke already.
I know it is ridiculous... Just suddenly feel like it!
Damn it manxz!! I am not a smoker. I don't smoke.
IT IS STUPID TO SAY ALL THIS...
IT IS JUST A MOMENT OF FOLLY :(
I just wanna try, but I promised myself not to.
I lighted up the candle...
Wondering why am i doing this....
How disheartened can I be?
How silly of me to stare at a candle and hope it could take some unhappiness in me...
I know its lame, but its the truth when you're bored.
How I wish you're here with me ~
You can say I am dumb or whatsoever...
I feel so unbearable inside.
There's nothing I can say...
Simply down, yup, really moody right now.

Where has my heart gone to?
Sunday is not a good day because in 24hrs time, Monday is arriving.
I will be okay in a while:]

SMIL3Z~

Lack of inspiration. 25th Feb'11

2011-02-25T20:58:00.003+08:00

最近真的很忙。我没灵感要写什么。有时很烦，有时像个疯子。我觉得我太不像话了。

熬夜的问题让我情绪不稳定。我应该早睡啊！

学习到底是为了什么？这么拼命，值得吗？

看着那些聪明的朋友，我真好奇。

好奇着不明白他们为什么那么能够吸收所有教过的东西。

算了，想这么多都没用。

还是靠自己最好。无论测验或考试，只要我尽力就好了。

困咯，每一次想要做些什么，第一反应就是，“不行，我好累”。

自己太懒惰了。

好了，算了，不管了。

我要去睡了。

晚安！^^

SMIL3Z~

Busy all round.15th Feb' 11

2011-02-15T05:57:00.000+08:00

15th Feb' 11 (Tuesday)

I have been busy all round .
This is ironic because I am posting at 5a.m on 15th Feb'11.
Normally, i would have slept soundly like nobody's business.
I can't imagine me blogging right now.

Anyway, I wasn't that crazy to stay awake through the night.
This is something I felt so silly, I was studying and just dozed off.
Bed is a distraction, thoughts that filled the rest of your memory space are also distraction.
Studying in the living room, television and voices of your family members are also distraction.
Bedroom(bed,storybooks,computer,etc) also makes you want to get away from what you are doing.
I just couldn't focus well and that-bed really cause me to divert my attention to it.

Got up in the middle of the night, 2.a.m and I made it through till now.
Forget about going back to sleep, gotta prepare for school in 1/2 hr time.
Guess how am I going to survive later on?!
With Total Defence, meaning no food and water - no recess!
It gonna be an amazing challenge for me.
In addition, there will be Social Studies Common Test.
Besides all that, I am not motivated to stay for CCA till evening 6p.m.
How disastrous can it be when Tuesday comes..........

Life is indeed this way when you are still a student..
What will it be when you are an adult?
It won't be any better ,it would be even more hectic then ever..
Just enjoy studying, that's the best for now.

Not now.Not later.Not in the future.
If there's no decision made, how can you TAHAN all this nonsense in life!!!

LET'S START AND STRIVE TO THE END OKAY!
GOOD LUCK PEOPLE!^^V

SMIL3Z~

Being productive? 5th Feb'11

2011-02-05T22:33:00.001+08:00

Saturday, 5th Feb '11

Felt great today but not still something's bothering me. Who cares?!
I wanted to enjoy as much as possible...^^
Made trips to cousin's house the wonderful auntie's house for visiting:)
His neighbour was generous, received ANGBAO from them too!
Lunch at Crystal Jade in NEX with Cousin's family and his ex-neighbour.
Lucky day indeed because I enjoyed the day with my cousin and his ex-neighbour treated us for lunch!
How cool can it be?!!

Nowadays, you hardly see people communicate with people living next their units.
Like, early in the morning, some residents woke up and get out of their nest, and quickly move to their destination without saying "hello" to you.
You see people in the market, do they communicate much with those who sells things to them?
Market-->
A: How much are these?
B:$...
A: Okay thank you! ( This phrase is left out )
Some will just walk away like they are in a hurry.

This applies to me too. I don't have a habit.... I know I am trying.
I guess we should have a "neighbour day" or whatever it is.
Whenever i see my Grandmother knowing so much of the people around me.
I felt a bit "OMG" Everytime there will be this question popping out:
" How come you know so much about her/him... Why ah?"
It seems that the old ones are trying to know whats going around them.
The young ones do bother but with only their own stuffs.
Not as observant as they should be.
People are always busy and are always rushing.
They cannot do nothing,
Stop and slack will most likely make them feel that they are useless.

Come to this point, i felt that being productive means you got to do something meaningful.
Whatever it is, do something, I am not criticizing on anyone but I am a human myself,
I have been wondering what it really means to be working.Be it yourself, or with people around you and definitely you got to be in contact with the surroundings(environment) as well:)
I know boredom grows as you let your imaginations run your day.
Reflecting much and sometimes i do think like an idiot with nonsense and talk craps.
I really hope i can achieve bits by bits and reach my goal and dreams someday.
Only words and thoughts won't help much but that motivates me a little.
Kind of contradiction but this confusion could not be stopped.
I am trying, really trying to behave well and make sense in my words and all...:)

SMIL3Z~

新年快乐! 3rd Feb '11

2011-02-03T18:42:00.000+08:00

2011年2月3日(3rd Feb)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!:)
新年快乐！：）

大家都去拜年了，祝你们开开心心的哦！
哈哈哈！：D
恭喜发财！^^V

初一这一天，我过得还不错，你呢？
：）
好了，明天我再上线了。
祝大家好运！=）

SMIL3Z!

28th Jan' 11

2011-01-29T00:06:00.000+08:00

28th Jan' 11 Friday :)

CAN'T HELP IT!

I am getting hungry again.
Had 3 bowls of rice with the dishes and headed to school for th MTP.
Now, i am so irritated by the growling sound....
I have been eating a lot recently.
Need to exercise more~

I AM NOT STUPID!
Seriously, CAN'T HELP IT! (x2)
I found myself so silly :(
Such a sad news, I failed when i was doing NT Chinese Workbook. ( helping J's in his hmk)
All wrong!, So poor thing okay! Perhaps i was distracted and I did not choose the correct ones.
Practice is the key! I need more practice :>

PICTURES TIME!, ( random ones)

Eyes are tired, i am going to bed now bye!:)
SMIL3Z~

HI! 21st Jan' 2011

2011-01-21T22:04:00.000+08:00

HI!

Oh dear, how long has this blog died...

Not dead, I am going to fill this space with my good and bad times again!

Lets talk about something which would free your mind of from school okay^^

I see LIGHTS! BRIGHT & BEAUTIFUL LIGHTS! :)

Are you curious about it? Haha, I 'll show you^^

Yeah, Isn't those lights AWESOME!:)

* The 1st pic shows the "beads" taken off and after all cleaning.

The light in the 2nd pic is the same as the first one.

I find it cool to have such lights in my own home!^^V

I did not dye my hair and i definitely won't do that.

The color is reflected by the light in the 4th pic :)

Nice? :D

How long have you never paid attention to your surroundings?

Like ... in your house, family members around you and the environment you are living in.

You might not feel it, but everyday changes.

When tomorrow comes, it is no longer the same as today.

You know what you need for now, but what about later?

I saw the moon, the bright yellow-orange moon days ago...

I hope to see it again, but when ?

It takes a moment for that answer to come to my mind.

Living in this house for 16 years and only till now then i realized how

how pretty my home is.

Do you know why you still love your own house no matter where you are?

Maybe you might think its silly to think of that now or maybe i should be spending time posting other meaningful stuffs and not this kind of rubbish.

Well, the point of blogging about this is to make sure i will treasure people, things and myself well from now on.

Wasted much time and energy for those useless things in the past.

There were too much I have missed out..

~BE AWARE AND STAY ALERT! You won't know when you will die, but you are going to be sure that you are alive for now. START TO LEARN NOW, ITS NEVER TOO LATE. DON'T WAIT AND REGRET WHEN YOU LOOK BACK TO FIND THAT YOU HAVE NOT BEEN DOING WELL DURING THOSE TIMES~

Never find faults in yourself, give yourself a good smile and stay confident all time!
If you are lack of anything, find back the feeling or that something.
Life is just like a puzzle, you always ask "why" and you want to know the answer.
Where is the missing piece... be more attentive and give yourself a wider space for thinking and relaxing.
See and challenge yourself to search for it, you can do it!
The change in you is how much your determination is.

相信自己，保持清醒, 总有一天你的梦想会实现的!

OKAY,its time to end this post, will post again next time :)

SMIL3Z~

I AM BORED. 3rd Jan'11

2011-01-03T12:32:00.000+08:00

I AM BORED :(

Found this website BORED.COM.
Very random I know. Many things out there for me to do yet i am just slacking away.
Boring much and i decided to turn to internet for help. Actually, not much difference, i am still bored!
Anyway, i won't take long to just sit and facing the screen, pretty tiring you know. ( eyes ><)

Off to do some stuffs or play some stupid games. Bye.
School tomorrow, are you people steady for it?! :P

SMIL3Z~

HAPPY NEW YEAR!:) 1st Jan '11

2011-01-01T19:09:00.001+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!:)

A new year, A new turn over, A new image, A new life :)
In a blink of an eye, this is what i have become after 15 years.
I thought it was long, but it doesn't seem so for now.
16th year of being human is like a roller coaster.
However, you might not know, this could just be the beginning of the battle which i have to fight for.
I will make do best repent after mistakes and mistakes made for the past 15 years.
Today is the start, 1st Jan '11 :)

I am sure you do have your own resolution yeah!^^
May everyone has has their wish come true!
ALL THE BEST FOR 2011! :D

These are the pictures( not all) i have taken in China ^_^
There are a few repeated pics* I did it in an animated GIF style.
Do look at it and comment if you want :)

Things i like when i am in China:

1 : I LOVE MY FAMILY!!! ( Sister and brothers and my CHINA HOME)
2 : The sugarcane is like a WOW! Crunchy and Juicy manxz!
3 : The green green scenery and the swing on the trees!^^
4: Main bus stop is under renovation, and shelters are used temporarily.
5: Big bowl noodles and porridge which are far more worthy( Cheaper and nicer)
6: School isn't tiring because i feel they are all so enthusiastic during lessons and their voices make the class lively.
7: People are friendly and the market is always crowded in the early morning.
8: Just loads of fun you can have there!, I really enjoyed living in my hometown:)

This is the sugar cane. You got to spit it out after sucking the juice :)

This is like the tricycle but its a motorbike at the side.

The market :)

This(above) vegetable is very yummy!:)

They put on the floor with a sheet of plastic and display their food for sale.

Do you still see people carrying that on their shoulders anymore? :O

My uncle picking the beans:)

Another part of the market...

Toys for sale.

An old building in the street( shophouses)

Pic taken in the house ( outside view )

My birthday cake^^

Played fireworks on the 18th Dec '10 before we left on the 19th dawn:)

yeah:D

All right,gtg now. Will update again:)

SMIL3Z~

School starting soon... 27th Dec' 10

2010-12-27T22:53:00.003+08:00

Monday, 27th Dec' 10

SCHOOL STARTING SOON?!

IN A WEEK TIME!^^

School!:) I love school! School to study only during the day and not those days where i have to stay back~ Holiday is stupid, because i am too silly for not spending it wisely.Can't blame me because i don't think i can become smart enough to turn back time, back to the day where my holiday has truly started.I didn't even get to have a proper holiday because of school!

School!:( Oh you are such a mess in my life, i thought you are simple but you are not. Headaches turned out to be school days.So school, faster start so i can wash away all my holiday plans and not thinking about it ending so soon again for i knew i will soon get to have a proper one someday!:)

I know it is so random but i can't help it thinking this way...

Sick and tired of having to make my trip to and fro to school.

I do enjoy studying in school, ( just can't believe i am saying this...)

Suddenly telling myself i have to really buck up and study.

What's wrong with me... NONONO!

It can't be.

Not talking to myself but typing what i wanna voice out.

For now i really wish i can concentrate when school reopens.

I wanna get good good grades.

One way... No way... Just this way.

I am trying to motivate myself to learn how to cherish school days because i really want to stop schooling already.I know i can't, at least for now, i know i got to continue and improve on my studies!^^

Alright... not gonna to talk about it anymore.

It is bedtime & i am going to sleep now!:)

SMIL3Z~

MERRY CHRISTMAS!:) 25th Dec' 10

2010-12-25T21:24:00.000+08:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!:)

Did you have fun celebrating Christmas? I hope you do enjoy!^^

Last night went over to Auntie's house.Celebrated Christmas... It was simple and so so.

Thanks for the presents though, seriously, before this celebration i don't have the intention to join in the fun.

Anyway, i did went over last night with my grandmother & brothers. Exchanging and giving of gifts were kind of a hassle but for an occasion like this,it should be the case right?!

I don't know why am i talking so much about it.Ya, It's Jesus Christ's Birthday actually!^^ We should appreciate how Jesus Christ has sacrificed for us.If not for Him, We won't be here, in the world, on this fantastic place.

Home is a place where warmth and happiness can be found. We are celebrating this day to share our love and little tiny bits of appreciation towards our families and friends.

Let us just Enjoy and also feel that Jesus Christ is always in us!

He made us this world,He made Today and got us so much " HOHOHO!" ...

He made the children dream of Santa Claus and somewhat also believe in the story where Santa Claus will secretly pass the present through the chimney.

Of course, at this age(15) i know there isn't any Santa Claus, but think about it, When it's Christmas, you would look back and your mind will be filled with this story,etc. Right?^^ God is amazing:)

Here's a little video(Song) i found :)

Listen yeah!:D

SMIL3Z~

Memories in China:) 23rd Dec' 10

2010-12-23T16:59:00.000+08:00

Thursday 23rd Dec' 10

HELLO! :D

Time to post about my trip to China:)

The place is totally different from Singapore.The place we lived in is just a village.

Not small as you thought,not as old and dirty you can imagine.

Improvements has been made and it was much better than before.Take a look at these pictures below yeah!^^

-At the airport-

-Waiting to board the plane with my Grandmother,Grandfather and Brothers.-

Reached the Mei Lan Airport in Haikou and Uncle(舅舅) went to fetch us:)

It's Big!Outside the house(like a farm/part of the village)

My 佬佬-GREAT GRANDMOTHER:) She was Excited to see us back home!^^

Waited for years and till her hair turns white totally:>

The door... Brothers outside:)

Lovely Sister :)

It's time for my little brother("老大") to try on the bike yeah!~ HAHA:D

Brother(China) Cycling on the long long road freely!^^

Sister riding ... ^^

See my specs:) Hehe:P My sister's friends kept making fun of it.

( They have superb eyesight and never wear specs)

Sister and friend sitting on the swing tied to the tree.

Another kind of swing which is also made of net( in black).

Grandmother and Grandfather went to the Dentist :) Laughs,:)

See the chairs? HAHA, small manxz:) Took this in my relatives' house.

I dyed her hair black! But many said that white is nicer for her. She is happy though, so its fine!^^

Sunrise( top & below pic)

BEAUTIFUL, FABULOUS SUNSET! :) I saw countless of stars at night too:P

They do have night classes. See my sister's class.( Primary school).

The back of the classroom.

Brooms and stuffs they use to clean the classroom. See the baskets( used as waste bin)

My Brother's class( Secondary) In another place already.( The teacher has a lot to write :X )

Brother not paying attention oh. He's such a silly boy...

This is the computer( not flat screen) they used.( In my Uncle's house)

Cow & Chicken outside my Sister's school :)

.........................................................................

Alright, I will continue to post about it another day.That's all for now yup^^

SMIL3Z~

I AM BACK!, 19th Dec'10

2010-12-19T23:01:00.000+08:00

I AM BACK:)
Totally miss my hometown (CHINA)!
I don't feel like coming back to Singapore..
Out for 2 weeks- it seems only 2 days. TIME FLIES( I HATE IT) ><.
Those kids ( Cousins) & my Great Grandmother and the places and memories, EVERYTHING were just too BEAUTIFUL IN MY MIND :)
Just a short post okay, i will post photos soon.
Actually, my own home isn't that bad but i still wanna play,jump,work,study,eat & ENJOY with my brothers & sister! :(
Wish next year can go back there again!
Hasn't been posting for a period of time.
Wonder if i should change this blogskin, it seems boring right?
Anyway, tag more people! thx:)
Thanks for those who have tagged and kept it alive!^^V
Alright, gonna shut down now, stay tune!:)

SMIL3Z~

China here i come! 5th Dec' 10

2010-12-05T01:34:00.000+08:00

YAY! ^^V

Know what?!

In hours time, i would not be here, i will be in the plane heading to China! :D

Luckily and suddenly yup~

We all got the date wrongly, but just then, mother went to check again.

FUNNY CANXZ!:P

If not we would be expecting the flight is on 6 Dec.

Oh well, rush rush rush! :>
HAHA:D

Nice okay, i am going to FLY!:)

AWAY FOR 2 WEEKS! :>

GONNA MISS MY BED, MY ROOM, MY EVERYTHING DOWN HERE IN SINGAPORE!~

Alright, take care everyone^^

Enjoy your December holiday too^^V

CHINA, HERE I COME!:)

SMIL3Z~

I AM SUPER HIGH TODAY:) 29th Nov' 10

2010-11-29T23:55:00.000+08:00

HI♥

I AM SUPER HIGH TODAY:)

Okay,

- Peace in the morning for hours.
-Fought with brothers in the afternoon.
-Had J's accompany in the evening.

After all, those fights are nothing.
Meeting him meant everything. I felt much better then.
Cool right? :D

Well, it was like heaven y'know! :)
Being able to see someone you wanted to see so badly and then that person became so sweet. ^^V
Walking under the rain with the umbrella held in his hand, sheltered without being drenched.
Awesome!, Isn't? Can you imagine? :>
Hehe:P

Laughs, i missed him so much manxz:]
Like a finally only!^^
HAHA:)

At night too bored, i drew this :
( Don't laugh or say its ugly, I stopped drawing ages ago)

It is plain ( I Know), but just to kill time :x

Alright, i wanna go and sleep already, pimples are out! :(
Nightz people!
TAG more and also CLICK on my Nuffnang Ads!

SMIL3Z~

Haiz. 28th Nov' 10

2010-11-28T22:45:00.001+08:00

Back here:)
Shall continue posting on the chocolates yup.

Anthon Berg :)

Thats all ^^

what to do?! :x

Eat chocolate? :P

I don't know, I ain't craving for it right now, so bye, post again soon.

SMIL3Z~

deadbeat. 23rd Nov' 10

2010-11-24T00:10:00.000+08:00

THE COCOA TREES

YOYOYO! :)

I am going to miss that place manxz....
Kinda enjoyed with those new colleagues made down there..........
Where ?! Guess :)

These two days, i have been to 89 Defu Lane.
The Cocoa Trees company.- Regional Sales Department.

In my team, there are Li Hua, Daniel, Nicholas, Adibah, Jin Hui & Me :)

Guided By:
Ms Tivinia (Director of Regional Sales),
Ms Cindy ( Assistant )
Jia Wen - how i think :( Shy & friendly-learn the BL thing from her... )
Belinda - how i think :( Express her emotions easily -learn that it is not really that easy to handle customers...)
Agnes - how i think :( Looks Confident... learn that she is doing fine and not she is kinda funny... )
David - how i think :( Uncle David & learn a few things from him..(about the conversion of $ in the system... )
Tum - how i think :( from Thailand and outgoing ... got to entertain oneself though work is impt...)
Bernard - how i think :(Chatty...try to relax and give oneself a break)
together with Mr William - how i think :( manages the warehouse)

It is not really like a working place in some office you see out there in the world.
Its kind of like school with those colleagues chatting with you happily...
During lunch break, they do talk things abut movies and songs...etc like teenagers.
The department has a buddy system which says if one of the staff is on leave for that day, the other partner will cover up the work for him/her.Also there will be incentives for that partner.( Cool right)

Ms Trivinia told us about leadership stuffs, and her expectations for her staffs.
-Attitude
-Teamwork
-Job Performance

It is not difficult, just follow and it is easy.
ANOTHER THING WHICH SHE DISLIKE, people who is working must know their jobs well
and CANNOT SAY " I DON'T KNOW". :)
She is very flexible and not very strict. She treats everyone fairly and like friends to one another.

Alright, shall proceed to pics time yup :)

1st Day down there :

The booklet we received :)

A game which the department uses it during promotion.

Made by LiHua & Me:) Nicholas called it "SweetHeart" :)

All these above are taken in the meeting room where we rest, slack and wait for the staffs.

All these are from the warehouse...
Does the chocolates excites you?! Not yet... MORE TO COME...
Shall continue in the next post :)
HAHA:D
You will go "wOW!" if you have a chance to be there.
Hehe:P

SMIL3Z~

Brother's. 16th Nov' 10

2010-11-16T11:47:00.000+08:00

HELLO.
Another day of boredom.Fetched my baby brother back from school just then.
Took some pics of his stuffs. Haha, these are what Nursery kids do...

Not very pleasing but can only encourage him to do better.
What more, he is just a kid. :)
Some of his pics are so fun manxz. ^^

Alright nothing much.
I really don't know what else to post, i do not feel like using computer anymore.
Bye.

SMIL3Z~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY EUNICE!, 14th Nov' 10

2010-11-14T13:55:00.001+08:00

YESTERDAY :

Went to Olivero Daddy's chalet @ Costa Sands Resort( Pasir Ris).
Haha! I was excited! I wanted to see the cute cute little baby girl:)
Like a finally! ^^V Princess Eunice's birthday celebration was pretty cute okay!
By the 16th, Princess Eunice will be officially 1 year old! :)
Everything was pink and her dress was white! :) Hehe:P Before the celebration was kinda Boring.
Angel Mummy and I were just sitting & there was a time where we went and watched Daddy and Friends swimming. JunSheng AhGong wanna take photos^^ So Funny kays~

Photos:

( Ps, some pics were taken at night, my phone camera no flash hence blur/dark )

HAHA, ^^ Afterall, Happy celebration indeed.:D
Hmmm, Xavier and his cousins kept teasing me ...well it is fine. =]
So many little kids, guessed they were the ones keeping the spirit up yeah! :>
Okay, around 10.30p.m went off with Mummy. Daddy sent us to E-Hub to wait for Mummy's sister.
Bused Home then.Thanks Daddy and Mummy! :D I was feeling great yeah! Finally met up with Mummy:)

YESYES, HAPPY BIRTHDAY PRINCESS EUNICE! ^^V
Be happy and stay cute! :P

Alright, shall end here.

TODAY:

Nothing much, staying at home :)
Byebye:D

SMIL3Z~

Shortone. 12th Nov' 10

2010-11-12T21:31:00.000+08:00

Updating ...

Few days back.......

Celebrating mother's 41th birthday:)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY^^

Bought the cake (Strawberry Black Forest) @ Hougamg Mall for $40.
The cake was very different from what i have eaten before.
YummyYummy !^^

Next,

Video on....... ( take a look & you'll know)

Okayokay, I have nothing more to write, tired eyes are making me fall asleep.
Days are fine, i am alright, and everything are as usual.
Much to do during this holiday.
No, it is not even a holiday i guessed.From the start, it isn't.
Nevermind, used to it.
Nothing to worry, i know i can survive through.
I am looking forward to New year.

Post again soon:)

SMIL3Z~

Bored. 6th Nov ' 10

2010-11-06T22:08:00.002+08:00

That day went to catch Legend of the guardians with Tiffany.C. Still alright but she said it was a boring movie. The day at Vivo with her was pleasant^^. At night went to her house to help her with her colourings, then went off at 8p.m plus.Nice day yup:)

(Photos grabbed from her blog)
I got some others with me too, will post it next time :)

Today's story:

School:( No matter how much i dislike these moments... i must endure it to the end.I know I am not that weak to give up at this time where i can get everything in time to come. I just have to bear with it and prove i am what i am.

Went down Yishun to head to Sembawang... Contacted Xiiao Aae Kia & Ah Pek, telling them i reaching soon but what was so unexpected was that they told me they were at town.I was super angry but stayed calm. Argh><.. Wasted my trip down to Sembawang.

Me, being softhearted, met them at ION. Gosh, i wanted to go Bugis so they agreed to go with me after i meet them. Walkwalk lo, wasted my Mrt fees too. :( Pissed off with Xiiao Aae Kia manxz. Seriously got me so boiled up. Nevermind, then they go smoke smoke. Teased me, said i so emo.Xiiao Aae Kia went to take photo with the Soldier or whatever luh, no idea what is that. Initially thought of taking bus to Bugis but troublesome, ended up taking train. My ez-link money fly again. Ah Pek kept smoking, -.-

After that, headed to Bugis Street.Ah Pek bought food.Looked around for Xiiao Aae Kia's stuffs.Nothing much.They went smoke smoke again.Bored die me.Go temple and Fu Lu Shou Complex. After that went to Good Time Coffeeshop.Xiiao Aae Kia smoked and smoked.><. Slacked and then shopped.Lastly, we separated:)

After taking bus 80, went over to meet J.Awhile only.It was drizzling by then so could not stay too long. No umbrella for me :( Got home by 7p.m plus i guessed.One day passed so quickly, now i am just too tired to do anything. Feel like going to bed. So yeah, will post again soon. bye:)

SMIL3Z~

Back to blogging yeah:D 31st Oct '10

2010-10-31T22:26:00.002+08:00

Back to blogging yeah:D
I guess my blog is dying soon but luckily i managed to get myself to be active and keep it alive like finally! ^^
Have been dealing with food and phones these days.
Whatever it is, i am not going to look back at my sad moments after i got back my EOY results.
Such a lousy one, who cares?! I gotta move on from now, seriously gotta focus and study thoroughly.
I am not one that will be sad for a very long time, i have got over it!
I knew this gonna shock you! Well, nothing to be surprised, though i passed overall but it was not a pleasant news.Brokenhearted? To me, what is done cannot be undone. So i would not broad about it anymore. Let it be then ^^

I could not take the whole pic of the result slip, so bear with it. Actually there is nothing much to see.
Only, Cs & Bs.
The only subject i have improved is Combined Science. The rest... needless to say uh. JUST DROPPED:(
Total : 371/600.
Percentage : 61.8%
Conduct : Good
L1R4 - 19
L1R5 - 24

Few days back,( on 26/10/10 Tuesday) we celebrated father's birthday. We went to Shabu-Shi Buffet Restaurant in Hougang Mall for lunch.The food served was not bad though:) For a student like me, it costs $13.90 during weekdays. First time eating down there, i think that the service was quite good and the staffs were friendly :) This buffet caused us $40 + for 1 adult, 1 child, 1 student and 1 senior citizen.
Father bought me a new phone too.

At night, father gave us $ then we went to the coffee shop at Hougang Ave 8 (the one which is nearest to the Fairprice) for dinner.Father did not go with us. We had an awesome dinner, esp. the Fish soup which was so delicious that me and my brother scooped till there is not even a drop left in that pot. In total, we spent only $30 + for dinner.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO FATHER :)
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO UNCLE LEE ( in Japan now) ^^
(They are brothers but Uncle lee is younger. Both birthday fall on the same day)

The day after his birthday which is Wednesday, my mother took a leave. Father brought her and baby brother & grandmother off to town... I did not get to go with them because i came back home late from school. Baby brother wanted a cake so mother bought a cake to celebrate for father's birthday.... You know a birthday without a cake?! Haha,having a birthday cake is a child's dream.It would be sad for a child even though it is not my brother's birthday but he wanted it so no choice.We just sang the birthday song for father and he had his wish and cut the cake.=] Brother got some certificates for he had some sort participate in the Maths competition,etc and mother gave him a phone, also got him a prepaid card.He was so excited but problems came... there is something wrong with the phone/ the prepaid card.I was called to help him... So yeah.

I got the pic of father with the cake but there is something's wrong with blogger, I shall upload next time...

Thursday which was the last day of school....
However, to me, it is not. I have to be used to it.
Forever, i would not be able to have a proper holiday ...
I have to go back to school for lesson tomorrow ( Monday) and CCA on other days.
Life is like that, you gotta keep moving on. You cannot stop! Even it is a holiday, school will the first thing to make you happy but school is also another matter that spoils your mood. The thought of not going back to school anymore for 2 months is just a wish, a dream. It never come true.School will be the stain on the ground which prevents you to keep on with your holiday plans.There will be someday where you will be dragged back to school for something. Isn't it irritating?Forget it, i shall take it positively.I will be strong to overcome this agony.

No matter what, i will still enjoy what i am doing for now, hope you do enjoy yours too!
HAVE A NICE HOLIDAY!^^

Alright, gonna stop typing and i'm ready for bed now.Eyelids are dropping and my fingers are aching.I need to sleep for school tomorrow.

SMIL3Z~

Eat,rest,sleep for Saturday :) 23rd Oct '10

2010-10-23T18:03:00.000+08:00

HELLO!^^
I really have no idea what to do... Being complacent once again :(

Disappointed?
Disheartened?
Downnnn.....?

I had let it go...
Results were just horrible!
It was a blow to me but just shocked for awhile. Now i an fine.
I will post it by next week when i get my report book.

I will not give up just like that.
Brain uh brain, activate yourself. I need you to function.
I am going mad, seriously.( Headache over the saddening outcome.......)
Is it worthy?
Hmmmm...... I guessed not really.

Well, yesterday went to meet him.
Though it is not long, my headache went away after seeing him.
Had a pretty fun conversation with him.
I know he will always be there for me:)

For today, woke up early because of the noises at home.
Went to Market with grandmother.
Bought quite a lot of food.
Gotta be active and i am going to go with her to the market every week from now.

Eat, rest, sleep for Saturday :)
Tomorrow will be better....... ^^

Okay then, shall stop here, will post again :)
Bye

SMIL3Z~

5th Day, girl, :( 18th Oct '10

2010-10-18T19:14:00.000+08:00

Hello people,

I hope my day would be better tomorrow :)
It seems so dead for me today.
I think my Maths Paper 2 gonna be a gone case.
I guessed this is just my fault for not studying well enough.
I had Spaghetti and Steamed Tofu for lunch.
It was not a great afternoon.Just not my day.

Dear girl,

You will come and find us right?:]
Remember the time when You see me in the canteen?
I was Happy to see you , you know:)
Remember the time when you were school and whenever we met each other, you will smile to me:)
I Saw your smile too sweet that it made my day better.
I Believe your smile will always stay that sweet and will even be the sweetest smile of all.
Remember when you called out my name...
I would want to hear it from you again.
Take care of Yourself Okay :)

Watch over your precious ones and those who stay with you during your 14 years.
Also update your family & friends' of your well being up there.
By any means, through texts, dreams or even wild thoughts.
Let them know wherever you are, you will still be the bubbly girl they knew.
Let them have a peace in mind and have positive mindsets alright:)
No matter what, you will still have our supports! :)
You will be able to overcome it all :)

Girl, Rest In Peace <3

SMIL3Z~

Dear GinnyLeeYiJing , 17th Oct '10

2010-10-17T14:56:00.000+08:00

Dear GinnyLeeYiJing,

Your family, Your friends, and people who care for you really MISS YOU :(
Please be Safe and Stay Strong!,

" Jesus, I pray, I hope that You will watch over Ginny and let her Rest In Peace. She is a sweet girl, allow her to live much better wherever she is.Make sure she is taking care of herself and help her family and friends to overcome all this unexpected tragedy. I BELIEVE She will be Strong and always have a smile on her face.Her voice and everything about her will never be forgotten. Keep her alive through it all. Amen. "

You will be Fine :)

If there is a Magic wand , i will wish for Ginny to be alive again.
If there is a chance, God will have that chance for Ginny to stay.
If there is darkness, Ginny will always be the light that shine.

IF ONLY I CAN PREDICT ALL THIS..........................
I WILL WANT TO TELL GINNY THAT "LIFE IS PRECIOUS"
Though We are not very close, I know that without You, My life is lack of something.
A FRIEND. A Loving, kind, sweet, cute friend. A friend that smiles whenever we see each other.
Although you are somewhere so far from us, you will always be in our Heart no matter what.

LIVE WELL & TAKE CARE :)

We will hope that we could see you appear again in our dreams and in reality.
Come back soon, especially to your Family and your dearest boyfriend........ & to all your loved ones.

SMIL3Z~

HI.:) 15th Oct '10

2010-10-15T16:47:00.000+08:00

HI :)

Just went to browse the questions on my Formspring.
Pretty glad that there are people commenting and so on and so for.
Okay, i would not bother too much about those nasty comments but i do appreciate it.
Thanks guys :)

Well, at least i know who am i. If you do not understand me, do not sprout nonsense.
At times, you may be true but i am not always the kind of person you have described me as.

I really do want someone to correct my mistake. I knew some mistakes i have to find out by myself. Still, thanks to the person who commented on my English. I do not really mind people spotting mistakes on me so if you have any comment on anything just say.

Also,comment more okay :) Thanks.

Let's talk about my day -

I just kept yawning and yawning. I felt so tired. Pretty fine for both Chinese Paper 2 and Physics. I dare not say that i will be able to score very well but still hope to get a good score which is not just simply a pass.

Forget about Holiday... Days pass quickly, and months will arrive, then a new year will begin.
I am forever stuck down here. Why? I want to know why too!

I am eager to see my results.......Well, exams have yet ended, i am just to anxious for it. Not worried but just want to know how i did. I just want to know.Hoping for improvements and would really like to get this over.

At this moment, i cannot stop thinking that life is such a bore. Studying is much frustrating and living is so tiring. Nothing is going my way. I have no idea what to do and feel so light in this world. Just a blow and there i go, disappear into the air like nothing. Not even a dust.

Am i dead or what?! I have no more energy to go on.Just downnnn.............

Okay whatsoever~ I am not going to care anymore:X

Feel like shouting out. But i just don't know how.So stupid right?!

Crazy me, i am going maddddd:

SAD or VEXED?

Can i just smile and forget it all?!

Fine!!! I am 100% alright. Nothing is wrong with me.
I AM GOING TO LIVE POSITIVELY :)

Bye, shall end here for now.
Stay tune, i will post again soon.

SMIL3Z~

studyhard!, 12th Oct '10

2010-10-12T22:14:00.003+08:00

STUDY HARD :]
STUDY SMART~

Hello, Short & Quick Update. Currently having last minute revision. I knew it would not work as effective as an early preparation. Now i am like half way dying even before the paper starts. In short, I just hope to pass everything.Today's Maths paper 1 and Pure Geography left me with a word- " DISAPPOINTMENT ". I will surely work harder on the rest, facts are already facts, i could not undo or change it. Nevertheless, i still would like to say that it it not that the paper which is difficult but my brain is not working as well as how much i have been studying.Because of today's paper, SADNESS lingered in the air for a short while in the afternoon.

After receiving a phone call from J, i was "HIGH" again. Seriously, that boy made me SMILE like hell! :D
HILARIOUS:> I could not stop feeling extremely excited and went on laughing like crazy woman....
I was having my lunch and he called again.Then on the phone with him for a while before i went to do my stuffs.Had a nap for hours.Woke up and revised my work. ( Just vexed :| ) Phone rang... It was J!
Decided to meet him then.Obviously, it made me feel good!!! :) Went back home & continue to do my work.

I guessed i am a study freak for today... i was immersing myself with facts and notes and words!!!
(URGHHH)>_<
Only if I knew how studying is so tiring in the beginning, i would not want to be in this world from the start.
Well, everything has been planned, so here am i in this part of of life to achieve further and to complete the journey of being human.

JUST DO IT , GIRL, YOU CAN & BELIEVE YOU WILL! :)

SMIL3Z~

Moodswings. 8th Oct '10

2010-10-08T17:42:00.001+08:00

GOOD LUCK PEOPLE! :)

Just thoughts ( random) .Read and comment alright?

I knew i am thinking but was i thinking too hard that all my thoughts went into the thin air that i hardly could see? Or is it that i was not thinking at all? I am simply wondering if i have any problem which make me so incapable to think well.Think, yes i do.I think till my tears drip(sad) .I think till i could not write properly during exams(rush). No.I was simply silly because it was the angst in me that confused my thoughts. I have no idea why was i thinking, what i want to think and thinking just knock me down. I fail... i fail to get up, i fail to cheer up. I did not know what had become of me. I am seriously blank in the mind and empty in my heart.

Now, at this moment you came into the picture.My eyes brighten, my heart slowly filled with the warm feeling.I am alive.I knew i was thinking about you! The sight of you lead me to a different path.By then, i just realized you are the dose that i need to heal my brain, heart and body. The grip(after i fell), the feeling (happy) and the person i should be are back! You are so amazing! I wonder why.It came to my mind eventually. You got the power, the power of love the power of confidence and power of perseverance! Those are what i needed as well.You passed the power to me by holding my hand tights and hugging me like there's no eternity, no forever.It is truly great to have you by my side.

Next, the smile of yours simply cheer me up:D I could not let you go, pressing you body near my heart, close and warm, the heartbeat of yours simply rockz! x) I could not stop smiling whenever we have eye contact.The happiness i am searching is just YOU! So sweet and so lovely, i would not let you slip away.
I am going to have you by my side no matter what happens.You changed my life back to usual, you gave me a different account of how i should live.You creates a sense of warm in me, a warm that is just right for me.The memories will forever etched in my heart and mind.This will never be the end.... the journey we sailing through is continuing on.....( An incredible power which pastes the brightest smile on me always).♥

My day:
Exam papers were fine for both English and Social Studies.It was such a pity as i did not finish on time for SS.Well, i should not rant on it anymore. What passed has become a past.I should look forward and do my best for the upcoming ones.

Thanks for all the efforts but i still failed to deliver it well on the actual test.Nevertheless, this brought me to a greater realization.I have got to study seriously and not last minute.Although i knew it all along but i could not keep it within the standards.I am not a failure yet.The results are not out yet, i will prove to you i can do it.Bye English & SS! I WILL PASS, TRUST ME :) Not only will i defeat you but myself, my goal is there, i will reach there in time to come.GOOD LUCK TO MYSELF! ^^

Met my beloved J,he gave me $$$ for lunch as a treat to me.Hehe:P
Stupid is good. LAUGHS :) I always smile whenever i am with him.Happy ttm x)
♥ YEAH! :D

SMIL3Z~

THINKING :) 1st Oct '10

2010-10-01T23:12:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY

WHATEVER I THINK I TYPE, SO THIS POST SHALL BE CALLED "THINKING" :)

Many times in life, you never know how much you miss something, someone and some days.

These are the memories that will never leave you behind. You are waiting for a miracle.

A wand that will makes everything perfect, a blink of an eye to make you see a different world.

Never had you notice how much you change, how much you miss.

The chances for losing is really greater than what you can hold for gaining.

One who hardly thinks, can never succeed.

Reason for you never had realize what in life you should treasure and not take it for granted.

We may thought we have gone through a lot, but it is not.

Blaming by giving excuses are what man usually does.

In the moment of happiness, we thought we are in heaven, that things are just fine.

In the moment of anger, everything just seems to be not right at all.

In the moment of sadness, who knows, you might just burst and thought you cannot live anymore.

Man is special, everyone is unique, we should not be lying to ourselves.

Truths can hurt but it do help you cure your habit of giving yourself ways to escape from it.

Lies are not bad, however, it would not do you good for a certain reason.

We have to live with it.

This is the nature.

We grow...

BE IT YOU ARE A CHILD, TEENAGE OR ADULT, EVERYTHING WILL COME, SOONER OR LATER.ADAPT TO THE CHANGE AND LIVE WITH THE FACTS AND ENDURE WITH THE LIES.FORGET ABOUT THE WORRIES AND TRY TO BE HAPPY.WE GOT TO MAKE OUR FUTURE BRIGHT TILL THE END WE DIE.

~End~

LAUGHS, 28th Sept '10

2010-09-28T23:54:00.001+08:00

HELLO!:) Just a random pic above, cool isn't?

Daytime, school was fine though.Irritated then.Forget it.I LIVE lesson was much better.
Still, it was boring. " Is Sex really touch & Go " was the topic.
Anyway i have learnt something.That's good, right?
"Part of oneself is irreversibly 'lost'/given to another person vice versa." True... if you do not cherish yourself.

After school, went home then. I guess whole of Punggol was flooded.It was raining heavily.Beautiful flow of rainwater by the window.Amazing okay:) On the phone with J.Then had my lunch, etc. Met up with J. He asked me ridiculous question.Fine, i replied anyway. J seemed tired & so walked him to the staircase then i went off.Did not accompany home to J's doorstep because J's sister was at home during that time. ^^ Down to Hougang Green next, walked around and HSH.Nothing much after that.

I really need to balance my time for sleeping. I have been slogging like hell. Not actually. I meant in school. I know i did sleep in class but i tried my best to stay awake and sleep lesser already.I am still struggling. Nevermind, it is fine!!! :)

So bye for now, gtg :D

Only after practices & practices would you get a perfect result. But nothing is perfect. So even after practices & practices, it is still NOT Perfect.So, use your brain to think,understand and do. That's the way.( Not 100% true but generally isn't it this way?)

SMIL3Z~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GRANDMOTHER!,♥ 22th Sept '10

2010-09-22T21:25:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO GRANDMOTHER !!!♥

Ordered Pizza from Domino's Pizza.
After that, celebrated Grandmother's birthday with the fruity cake! x)
Pictures were taken by Nokia phone.
Hehe:P Happy celebration.
Brothers and cousin and down to light their lantern and enjoy with the crowd over the street opposite our block.
Lunar calendar, 15th Aug :)
HAPPY LANTERN/MOONCAKE FESTIVAL! :)
Today is counted as the actual date-my grandmother's lunar birthday!♥

I this this pic which is the last of all (above) is the nicest^^V.Haha, i took this picture y'know...Well, it looks like happy family, that is what i meant.Don't you think so?Haha,okay,except i am not inside. :P
Alright, today this is it! I LIKE (Y)! :D I am too high already!~
J called me out the sudden, anyway i did predict it right!^^ HOHO!, ♥ Ya! xP

On the phone for a while, Miss J okays:> today did not get to meet J, I am the one who could not make it for most of the time.Laughs, J knew will understand, so it is fine:)

Now i and going to end my post and thanks people for those tags and TAG MORE! TYVM:D

SMIL3Z~

Day out for history project. 19th Sept '10

2010-09-19T22:21:00.000+08:00

Hello, while i am browsing through the net as usual besides getting some musics for relaxation, i got some pretty cute and meaningful quotes graphics to show y'all :)

To say, we humans have a lot going through in our mind, heart and lives. We could not expect everything to be perfect and wonderful.At times, we may fall but that is not a fail.It is a step to a pass.With just a step, it may seem tough, however if you are living as a human you can stand on your feet, smile and continue to achieve for the better! With the determination and confidence, the past will be left behind as footprints, as tears and as drips of blood that stop bleeding.You never know how much things you can discover beyond you.If living in the past makes you feel that you are in agony, do not hesitate, just look forward and forget it all.It is difficult, the process of being a human is never easy, don't you realize? How much ups and downs have you experienced? Can you count? Since you are already living day by day, from a baby, to a kid and then teenage, finally an adult in the future.You walked through much pain isn't? It is not like you could never make it, YOU CAN YOU KNOW! Believe in yourself , wherever you are, think of your past,link on how it brings up to the present you, how it strengthen your belief and trust and why in the past you thought you could not endure any longer but now, you are still you are.You did not fail, instead you are alive back with a stronger you!JUST A WORD - " UNDERSTAND" Never underestimate yourself, Never fail to try to understand yourself and Never give up even you are Under stress but Stand up & be where you want to be.

OKAY:)
I'm done with this post.
Off to pack my bag for school :D
No need sad, No need sigh, just smile and get rid of those stress you might suffer in school!
Alright, just to add on, i got this book from popular!
Kinda addicted to reading nowadays:)

Cost me $12.90 :]
Caught my eye for quite a moment, so i decided to buy it^^
Can say that i find it interesting too!:)

Tag more people :) TYVM!, :B

SMIL3Z~

Hiie:) 18 Sept ' 10

2010-09-19T00:02:00.001+08:00

Saturday, 18 Sept' 10

SLEEPY + HAPPY + ACTIVE + SMILING ! :)

My brain was not functioning that well today.Took a trip to Viven's house.Studied with her for hours.Kinda cool but then those information did not totally went into my head.I could not focus deeply.Alright, early morning at 10.30a.m,we started and ended around 3plus in the afternoon.Not as fulfilling as you thought but sometimes when A LITTLE accumulates,over time, it will become A LOT.Okay,we separated our ways after that.A bus ride to Compass Point then.Round and round the popular book store, till i bought a book after much hesitation.
Headed home subsequently.Well, halfway through finishing already.It kept me with the hours from the time i was in the bus, after i reached home & while i was having dinner.Quite an interesting Chinese storybook :)

This is it! ^^

I got it for $5.90 (with popular card discount).
Maybe the interest for reading came from the boredom i was having recently.Well, not a sad thing yeah:)

Okayokay, i was like having the urge to exercise, REALLY!However, something is just pulling me away from the thought of it.I could not even get myself to start to do some workout.Just so lazy perhaps.I want to get rid of those fats in me.I don't know why i am just so not determine to do so.In my heart i know, i really want, just that it seems i am falling backwards and could not stand up.Like the gush of wind pushing me off to a far behind land and where i am super seriously injured somewhere, internal injuries.This agony caused me to stay at the point where i fell and made me seem to weak to get up.I NEED TO GET STARTED WITH IT!,I am ready to start to face the reality and stop dreaming.This is the time i should make an effort.I have the will to do so i guess, stop procrastinating and get it done ASAP! :)

I am encouraging myself while typing this.This is not a plan like when you are going to write an essay.These words blink past my mind and i blog it naturally. Gaining fats nowadays and growing heavier day by day.I don't know, i just keep thinking i would be in the Trim and Fat ( TAF) CLUB sooner or later.In the past, how i wished i would be part of it, but then seriously i would not even want to..In fact, i just want to exercise more and not totally hoping to be in TAF CLUB.You know you know, if i grow fat,fatter & fatter, my chances of growing tall would be even smaller.I HOPE to grow tall!!! :D

Yesyes, i think i should be exercising now and then,whenever i am free. A little bit of stretching, running, jumping or fighting with my brother could help me to lose some fats ya.I do not wish to waste time on doing some other silly stuffs.Okay okay, from next week onwards i will try my best to get myself going on, moving on with my plans and manage my time well.I have the ability to do it, so why not?! :) It is the laziness in me that makes me so inactive.Should not even rant on it because i know i must control myself!Alright,shall continue my blog at a later date.End~ Stay tune for the next post!^^

TAG MORE AND THANKS FOR THOSE WHO TAGGED:>

SMIL3Z~

I am H.A.P.P.Y!:) 13th Sept '10

2010-09-13T21:03:00.001+08:00

As long as you are mine, i am willing to sacrifice.Not to say forever but for now, i know u are, so do not deny.I am not being silly, i know we are both foolish to have the same feeling. It is not because we are meant to be together, we do not have to be like others, as i know, we are not them, meaning we are unique, this i how we see ourselves and be a special couple <3.

HELLO!:) I am back:) I like today!Though it is the fist new day of the new term after holiday, and i am back to school, i felt great! ^^ Crazy ya!:)
:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)
HEHEHAHAHOHO!:P

Firstly, school was fine, except i was kinda sleepy for the last lesson and woke up Afiqa! Shocked and shouted! So embarrassed! :O

Secondly, home sweet home! I love to go home straight after school:)
Thirdly,I HAD FUN TALKING ON THE PHONE WITH J! ^^

Fourth, i went to play basketball for a while this evening, it made me feel so much better! I became more energetic!

Fifth,now my father came into my room and asked to to try the Tiramisu ice-cream!I shouted to him" NO!"How silly was i?!That was because i was posting now and i would not want to stop halfway.Anyway, after this i would go out and taste a spoon of it.I would not want to miss the chance huh!The smell is so fragrant, it made me drool! :P LAUGHS:D

Lastly!thanks for those who tag and kept my tagboard alive all this while!TYVM^^ Tags will be replied soon:)

Exams are round the corners, in 24 days time! :D
JIAYOUJIAYOUJIAYOU!!! X)

Bye, time to start to do some work already.Sleeping at 10 perhaps.I am going to heed J's advice yeah! MY PIMPLES, >< I want to clear you awayyy as soon as possible!!! ~

SMIL3Z

CRAB 11th Sept '10

2010-09-11T14:21:00.003+08:00

YEAHHH! :DD

This is my crab!^^
Does it look very yummy?! :>
Together with the gravy,i was already deeply craving for it!
Can't wait to savour it!
The ingredients was prepared by my grandmother and i cooked it!:)

HAHA:)
That was an improvement alright!
Come to think about it, after comparing yesterday's first trial of cooking, today was so much better!X)
Laughs, this crab!-->NICE OKay!The taste of the gravy is wonderful!A little spicy and a little sweet, & meat of the crab is soft, also with some rice to it ,I can say it's like heaven!:)

HEHE:P
Next time i want to cook many different dishes and be like a cook in the future.Well that is not a job i want, but i can say it is an interest perhaps.Yuppp, i want to cook again soon!Getting to be in love with cooking!
I WANT TO MAKE BETTER DISHES!:]

YES!,Now it's time for me to continue to do some work after eating such delicious and rare meal.Not like i always had the chance to eat crab! :>

Do comment on my post and tag more, also click on my ads if you see any! TYVM!^^

SMIL3Z~

Glad. 10th Sept '10

2010-09-10T13:49:00.002+08:00

Different things, different says, i feel the same anyway.There's nothing much to my life indeed, i just know i have to get myself up and move on.I decide what i want.Chances i had in the past, i did not know how to take, now when i am lost, i need it back.How silly right?It's fine, to me hope is everywhere, if i have the heart,there's another way out.Believe and trust,i will get there somehow. :)

This card ! :)
I got so hyper over it that day!
I can use this card to buy a bottle of 225ml of Dutch Lady milk in 7-eleven @ $1 per bottle :)
I have no idea why i was so excited about it, just like a kid uh.It's nothing much actually.Anyway,this card is free!Valid for students only.
If you want, go to this website and apply for it! Click HERE
Haha:D

I have been busy lately, so sorry that my blog is not updated these few day.
This blog of mine has rotten for a week or so. Now i shall update to keep it alive! ^^
Alright, let's talk about today. Come to think about it, nothing much seriously.
J came to my house and just went off not long ago. Glad to see him again :)
Have yet eaten for lunch. Gonna have it soon:]
I must study well for End-Of-Year Exams. 8 oct!, I saw the schedule, i am not anxious, neither am i pressurized. I just hope i can do much better than before.When there's a will, there's a way:)
I can make it through the battle, JIAYOUS!:)

I can't think of what to blog anymore.Just wish everyone GOOD LUCK & STUDY SMART! :D
Tag more people, thanks to those who keep my tagboard alive^^
Bye.

SMIL3Z~

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY! & STICKGIRL!, 1st Sep '10

2010-09-01T12:16:00.000+08:00

HAPPY TEACHERS DAY!^^ STAY HAPPY:)

Just want to say THANK YOU to all teachers i have ever met, or taught me before. =)

Yesterday, Greendale's celebration for Teachers day was superb! x)
Especially Greendale Got Talents :D
All the performers were once again marvelous, congratulation to the winners & WINNER!
Everyone that dare to perform on stage is already a winner, so besides the champion, all performers are considered the top from the start!:) Funny, cool , amazing styles and voices they had, it bring out a very high spirit for the celebration^^

School ended much earlier that usual.11A.M! :D I love it kays!:)
Back home first,and went to meet J after he was released from school.
Stayed at his house till 2p.m and off to Hougang Mall,waited for Chong Yue.
Walk around, back to Hougang Green,bought drinks and made our way to...
Yio Chu Kang Primary School (YCKPS)!!!
Separated when he saw his friend.
Met ChoonMin (Junior),waited with him for his friend:)
Went into YCKPS.Kinda lots of people.Tour around9only 1st level):
Up to the 2nd level.Saw Mr tan,( i don't really remember actually).

"ME : Where is Mdm Dasimah?
Mr Tan : She is inside, teachers are having meeting.
ME : When will the meeting end?
Mr Tan : 3p.m.
ME : (checking watch) It is already 3.30p.m. ,so long...
Mr Tan : (looking at his watch) Oh is it?
ME : Ya..."

*Junior was standing down there laughing away uh... ><.

You see, the time for ex-students to see teachers is actually 3-5p.m (this is what i knew).However it was delayed ><.

Slacked in the canteen,saw funny things,and i saw Alston too!,
Fun time Junior, joke around.
After a while, i saw my friends.Told Junior that i will be away.
We went different ways then.

My lovely friend, Atiqah came all the way from Woodland to Hougang.
Since the time she moved to such a far place, we has not been contacting each other.
Finally i can see her!,Miss her much yup.
Together with other primary school friends,(not from my class), we walked and then sat down to chat.

It was such a fortunate moment to see Mdm Dasimah near the office.Talked to her a bit,she was rushing for time.Busy busy ya,in the middle of the meeting,she secretly sneaked out to see if any students are looking for her.Haha!,Samuel, Hakim, Muhhahmad (not sure about the spelling), were there as well!Great!:) Each year i go back to YCKPS , i would see Samuel!,Hehe:P

Lastly,gave Mdm Dasimah a hug and then went back to my group of friends.
They were with Mrs Yan, after not long, we were out of the school:)

Accompanied Atiqah to look for her straws:]
Some of them went home first.
Left Carissa(forget about the spelling :X, i just don't remember), Me, Atiqah & her brother.
Hougang Green again.Then her brother left.
Hougang Mall once again.I SAW JUNIOR @ KFC!!!,He called my name,
I was so clumsy><, wanted to turn and look at Junior but i knocked into another lady at the same time, zzz :(
Bused back to Hougang ave 8,at last she found the flexible straw she wanted.
She mised her 161,waited with her, Carissa went back first.
Chatted and yeah,saw her boarded the bus and i went home after that.

Cool Day for me! I enjoyed much^^

Another Wonderful news!* :D

I received the book which i longed wish for! :D
"THE BITTER STICKGIRL UNANSWERED" !!! =)

Hehe:P THANKS LOTS TO STICKGIRL & Mr Aw. Really appreciate it a lot!x)
Great yeah!, Once again, the official website for this book is http://stickgal.blogspot.com/ .
WOOO~ I am like so high:)

I AM SO LUCKY TO GET THIS RARE BOOK ( popular bookstores i went does not have it anymore)!x(

Alright, shall end my post here yup! I AM JUST SO CAREFREE!Feeling damn good right now^^

SMIL3Z~

tough thoughts:> 30th Aug '10

2010-08-30T19:06:00.001+08:00

Hello!I am here again!,Thanks for tagging:) Tags will be replied here/@ your blogs :

Anony: Play more badminton!! It's fun ^^

ZZ >>> Anony:

Oh thanks:)

Alright,i'll try:D

You seem to be really fond of playing badminton yeah!,^^ HAHA:P

By the way, i have written a short story, it does not really link to my life or experience, but somehow it does too (a little).Mostly, the content is all from what i think and i just type it out naturally.

Comments would be appreciated.Feel fee to read and tell me okay^^, Thanks:)

~Tough Thoughts,~

I thought, and I thought , it was just all thoughts.><
I have no idea, it seems meaningless, it drives me to the corner where everything is so down and i am hopeless, i do not know how to explain because i feel so terrible,never had you ever wonder why i am in such misery... reason for you never have been in such state before.
You will never know how much i suffered,screaming in the middle of night ,awoke by the bad dreams,it made me so tired of every single moment,not moment but those memories that etched in my heart and it could never be erased.

What the hell is wrong with me nowadays?I just could not get you off my mind.
It is simply a gone case for me.I would not be able to concentrate.You are so influential, bothered by your words, your acts, my imagination are running too wild.It is just so crazy!
I am breaking into bits and bits, biting my lips so hard and enduring the pain i had once and still it has not fade away.

I realize, having you by my side, we could have fun.Without you, i just became so lonely.I do not know how you could live without me.We knew we both had the same feelings.Why had this happen to us?
Maybe it is just fate.Fate,where it decide our lives.We must follow it.We can change it but it is really tough.For your heart could not hold on to this anymore, and it just broke.The love line that is attached between your heart and mine became detached as well.

This could be meant for the better of us.We got to accept that it is fate.However i still think that we could not resign to fate so easily.We are human,we have our rights.We got to be strong!
How cruel can fate be...just so depressed over it!,Sighed.
We got to be strong!
After all, as you know, it is just my thought!

- End -

Haha it seems fine nowadays, perhaps i may have eaten some wrong medicine, or somewhat being influenced by some good students or motivated is a better word to use.I have been studying during the weekends.
Spent my day with Vivien Lee on Saturday!
Had my last day of my weekend with Eugene.Yeo, that is on Sunday!
Both of them had been a real great help to me^^
Worth it , you see!,:D
I had fun with them~
Though it might be like school days - studying for like 5 hours and more.However it became to our private world,where there is no rules and regulation.That is great! Do you think so? :) Reason for he/she is your friend and people you get along well with.Like ..... 1 to 1 lesson time!^^ Also it is two days in a row,such a rare opportunity!( for me)

Usually people do study with friends but in groups.1 to 1, Hmmm, i dare not say there is no such cases around.I prefer 1 to 1. :)Alright,all in all, if you have the heart and will to study , you can do it! Don't forget,hope is always there & with your determination and perseverance, you can never fail to accomplish something you wish you could do ^^

Shall stop here for now...
bye,will update again:)

SMIL3Z~

Just my day! 27th Aug'10

2010-08-28T01:27:00.000+08:00

(Just a random one-Picture from facebook's quiz's result)

Friday (270810)

Zhao Zhen is still wide awake @ this hour! :))
Posting for the readers & herself ! :D
Sad to say, the number of views in my blog is getting really very little.
Readers, where have you gone to?! :(
My apology for not updating consistently all this while,
come back to read my blog okay:)

Click on my ads too when you see it!=]

Tag more too, if you have no idea where is my tagboard, read the info below to guide you through:

Glance to your left, there is this " TagMe!, > ZZ's tagboard " below the picture.
Click on the "ZZ's tagboard" and you'll be link to my cbox website which is @ http://zz123.cbox.ws/ .

Well,today i did enjoy my day!
FUN....can be the word of the day?! :)
Haha,3E2 is great,chocolate cornflakes were all sold and many still pre-order for it!
It seems that our business is really flourishing!:D HAHA, exaggerating huh? :>
Our jelly was also yummy,but cornflakes are more popular :)
I guessed we did made quite an amount with the sale of both products.
I&E bazaar is much interesting than i ever thought it could be.
I think it is because i am in a kinda good mood for today so i did not rant on anything.

Another happy thing was that i need not stay back in school for one reason or another.
I went home straight!COOL!~ :) I LOVE IT OKAY^^
Had my lunch and then took a nap in the afternoon :)
I did not do much work today, just resting and eating.Gonna gain weight soon :X
I am being so lazy recently.=x

Thursday (260810)
Morning run was canceled!
I could not run again as usual.
However i did play badminton during P.E!
It was actually the first time i participate in the activities during p.e for this module.
I guessed i will be able to enjoy something if i do try to do the particular thing :D
You never try, you never know.Right? :]

Haha alright,shall end my post here.Sleeping soon orelse my pimples would not heal ASAP!
Seriously got to heed J's advice!I always complain and he always give the same answer and i just could not get his words into my brain.I am addicted to this computer thus it makes me sleep so late each time i used it.

Byebye!:)

SMIL3Z~

Thoughts. 25th Aug '10

2010-08-26T01:19:00.001+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!, BACK I am going to sleep soon, now it's 1:07a.m.(Wednesday's wee hour)

In hours time, gotta wake up and get ready for school!

okay :) just post something short yeah ^^

-- MY OWN PIECE --

"Say Monday,
Comes Tuesday,
Long Wednesday,
Hey Thursday,
Yeah Friday!
It's Saturday & Sunday!
My weekends are gone again :( "

Alright, nothing much, school is just making my eyes so tired, my body so exhausted, and my hands and shoulders are aching.Many problems, but nevertheless school days kill time!:x
I want my holiday!, I guessed half of the one week holiday gonna be eaten up by CCA :(
There's still 2 more events going on before this school term end.

Firstly- Sec 3s I & E Bazzar (27/08)
Secondly- Teacher's Day Celebration (31/08)

I am waiting,waiting for what, you mean you ain't waiting for something?
I guess everyone has been waiting and waited for a long time, for his/her cravings.

What do you crave for?
What are your wishes?
What is your dream?

I have been longing for a bike.
I wish i could attend overseas studies.
My dream is to LIVE HAPPY ALWAYS:)

Simple yet uneasy to be fufilled :]

So i got to really work towards each of this stages
&
steps by steps i know i will reach there someday^^V

Alright, i hope everyone in this world will also will have the heart to move forward and reach your goals!

SMIL3Z~

Mad girl today. 23rd August '10

2010-08-23T22:07:00.000+08:00

(Random pic up there :)

HELLO!!! :))

It has been weeks after weeks and now , months passed!:D
Here am i posting in this blog once again^^
My apology for not updating regularly.
Well, i have been busy and also resisted the temptation of using my laptop.
I had restricted myself from touching and using com for that one month plus that just passed.
You might think i am crazy, however i guess this is a better way to control my addiction for com.
I just feel so great about it ! Haha :)

What about today?!:>

Morning:
School as usual :) Surprisingly i didn't sleep for the whole journey to school except the last 10mins in the bus.
I didn't doze off during lessons time and i think i am quite attentive today but just for the last two periods, my energy level went down.However i still tried to give my best attention.=]
After school i went home^^V

Afternoon:
Such a wonderful and funny lunch i had:)
I think i am real mad today + still an immature child.
HAHA!, I bought roasted chicken rice , the instant curry noodles (middle-sized cup type)
Homed, and when i opened the packet of rice, i went totally "OMG" !, Haha, the chicken they gave was so little and i bet i am going to be hungry even i finished the whole packet.It is true that after that , i was not full enough, so i cooked the cup noodle.Hohoho!,Seriously, i guessed with the small-sized body you see in me,you could not imagine how much can i eat.Just 3/4 way through my hot soup , delicious noodle, my brother came home.I was finishing my noodles and also thinking what would he be eating for lunch.After a while, he got a bowl of mushroom soup out from the kitchen.I was like "saliva dripping"... Looking hungrily at his bowl of soup.Supposed to be full after having the noodles,but i still want MORE!,Though my brother had a few scoops of the soup, i went over and tried to have it for myself.After a few attempts, i snatched it over despite him holding bowl so carefully.Yummy soup!:D I was acting like a naughty and super childish child.In the end , the bowl of soup got into my hands! HAHA!Happily sipping it after that^^What i want, i always will try to get it.Likewise,because my brother ain't craving for that bowl of coup very much thus didn't fight with me in the end .Kinda stupid right, i meant for me to do such silly acts just over a bowl of soup.Next up will be fruits!I had my sour,sweet kiwi then:D Finally,my tummy bloated:X Food just makes me feel so much better but i have to becareful, it does make me grow fat!Like hungry ghost this afternoon yeah,ate so much ~

Evening :
Despite the drizzles,the amount of rainwater could not be compared with how much i missed my boy :)
I knew he was wishing to see me again^^ He called me and asked me to go over. I was like hesistating.
Reason being, i was kinda sleepy and do not feel like going out as it was raining.However, listened to his voice and i was more alert,i knew i could not miss this chance, i wanted to meet him badly too.I agreed to him in the end.After preparing i rushed down with my umbrella.Luckily my father did not stopped me from going because when i was about to step out of the house, he came out from the lift and was going back home after knocking off.He questioned me like i was being a bad girl and mixing with bad friends.I have been used to it so i do not really care.I would not want to quarrel with him,so just gave him a simple answer that i was meeting a friend then i went off without explaining much to him.Reached my boy's house block within 10mins.Though i did not make it in 5mins time, but still i was not that late.Come on,he scared me off when i was walking out of the lift.Goddamnit!><.Haha:D It was okay.Accompanied him then left his house after a while.A while is really awhile, a very short duration.Afterall, it would be good enough if i can meet him already.Chat and then he sent me to the traffic light.Afraid that the rain would get heavier too, so i did not stay that long.He has no umbrella with him either that is why he needed to get home before getting drenched later on.I just feel so high whenever i am with him.J is like a mysterious present, :D Cool ^^V I am going to love the feeling more and more.I wished that i could just have more time spent together with him :D

Alright, now it is night time yeah,10:06p.m. I gtg :) Shall post again other time :]
Time to do some work.I 'm going to sleep early today.Bye:)
Nightz people ^^ Tag more , TYVM ^^V Click on my ads too!:D

SMIL3Z~

HIIE:D 15th Aug '10

2010-08-15T21:24:00.000+08:00

Morning, did one hour of simple exercise.
Also spent hours doing my work.
Had a short nap ( 2 hours plus) ^^
Continue doing after that.................
Had my dinner at seven plus.
Rest till 8 plus and using com now.
I am going to pack my bag soon.
Sleeping at 9.30p.m i guessed.

^^V Nothing much to post.
Anyone,Any tips for me? :)
Wonder when will i .......................

My mind is blank :(
okayokay,short post only.bye

SO BORINGGG ~ Agree? Ohhhh!,
Mins passed,hours gone,days are becoming weeks then months...YEARS?!
Thinking alot recently, or perhaps it's just my imagination running wild :X
Okay,byebye. Randommmmuchhuh?! :]

TAG MORE PEOPLE, :) Click when u see the nuffnang ads too! TYVM ^^V

SMIL3Z

HIHI:) 11th Aug'10

2010-08-11T23:30:00.000+08:00

我以為... ... ... 我懂... ... ...
我以為... ... ... 这样... ... ...
我以為... ... ... 我会... ... ...

这都只是以為 ..................

我真的无可救药 ~
到底怎么了?!

Random :)
Bored now...
Sigh* >:(

Bye.Will post a better one next time.Stay tune:)

没什么 :D

Not really in the mood currently, gonna do my homework already, (last minute) good girl :)

SMIL3Z~

URGH!, 10th Aug'10

2010-08-10T15:37:00.001+08:00

(original)

Oh shitxz you! :X
~~I feel like quitting school already. I don't want study anymore.~~ Not that i've lost interest, well, i am just so bored today. And tend to be very frustrated even over a small little thing. ZZZ. Woke up early just to go school for 2 hours.Rushed and afraid i would be late.In the end ,i was lucky though. However school sucks for today. Not the WHOLE school got to watch the YOG thingy.It's like we're (some) upstairs at the classrooms wondering where should we go,what should we do, etc.Leaving us alone and teachers came later.But most of the school population were celebrating and watching in the hall of how it was processing.You see i was just so bored.Though i know it would be pathetic if no one cheer when the person who is holding the torch,passing by the blocks.I understood for the reason where they allocated some students in the class.Well, but it's like you go to school today to look forward for the celebration and it's like not exciting at all.I didn't get to see any performances or so.Well, there's other schools kids coming in and joined us.Though it's a once in a lifetime case but i wasn't interested either.I didn't enjoy the whole morning in school.Wasted my sleep and also made me feel so moody.I shouldn't have go to school..Why am i so silly,for attendance sake? !!!=.= Forget it, so much to rant...Let it be then.
This bad mood will only last for a while i guessed.=]

Byebye.^^

(edited)

SMIL3Z~

Happy birthday Singapore!:D 9th Aug '10

2010-08-09T13:09:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday Singapore!:D

(edited my me)

Click here to go to NDP official website.

~ Kind Soul ~

Finally, i came across some kind souls in the bus.Unlike the last time where those "real" humans tend to be hanging around.Well,what about it? Yesterday,Boarded 72 to tampines.It was packed like hell.I couldn't find any seats, to top it off, it wasn't a double decker as usual.My poor baby brother,grandmother,brother and me was standing.However at the front,there's some Kind Souls got up and gave their seats to my grandmother and baby brother.I stood all the way from Hougang to Tampines.It doesn't matter, not like i've never done before.My brother saw a seat later after some stops and went over.For the other time,I posted it too.It was when my grandmother,me and baby brother went to Bugis.Went home around 8plus at night.The bus ,similarly was squeezed with humans.Not even a single human offered the seats to my grandmother that was carrying a baby.Worse still they were looking like nothing happened.Alright,pondering if they were humans.Like real~ Kind Soul ,thank you very much :) May god bless you^^

~ Life is a struggle ~

When you dislike doesn't mean you won't do it.When you like doesn't mean you have to either.It's like giving up seats.Of course mostly of the humans in this world want a seat for him/herself.I 'm one of them.When things seem to be so bad that the bus is full,u will surely wish for someone to spare out a seat for you.Well,this is an act of courtesy.I don't like to give in when i can benefit from something.Don't tell me you don't because if u're human , u will think that way too.However when it comes ti circumstances like giving up seats for elderly.Also when all seats are taken,you should feel that it's right to sacrifice yourself.Being unhappy over a seat when u're already sitting on it is just a small matter.People that can't find a single seat should be more upset,esp.those old people.They don't express it out,they're old and will think negatively at times.

Like they don't gossip?Haha, that's funny.You might think they won't.But they do.Their conversations is not like what normal youngsters do.They talk about the behaviour they see around and reflect on it.They came to realize that not many people are behaving in the right way ,etc.Because of this, it tends to add on more worries for their grandchildren and so on.They nag,they scold, they advise.Just like our parents,and because of all this, they meant well for us.However some or most of us don't appreciate and think they are just so irritating.Likewise, they don't like to keep reminding but they do even when they are old because they still care.Also it's not a must ,they can leave you alone and neglect you all the way.But seriously, if this happen the girl/boy will never ever feel safe at all.Because they're just lack of the love and care that exists from somebody that concern about them.To also worry for their studies,relationships and living with those nags and scoldings,life is a struggle.

Sometimes, you just wish for A BREAK.A break in life where all this vanish and then you can have your freedom ,do whatever you want.Having the space of your own with no one taking you back to the moments where all frustrations and worries come into.Life is never stress if you never worry for anything.You got to learn when to let go,when to hold it tight.In life, there's never a break,you're just living on till your last breath.Do you stop breathing at any of this moment? NO.A break will only comes it when u realize everything and be glad that you're alive.LIFE IS A STRUGGLE AFTER ALL.

Alright , I 'm done :)
Any comments? :]
Have a nice day^^

SMIL3Z~

Yeahhhhh! ^^V 7th Aug' 10

2010-08-07T21:11:00.000+08:00

Yeahhhhh! ^^V

♥ staying at home :)

- Marvelous meals! ^^

-Anytime,great dishes will be ready:)

-So much comfy with my bed just a few steps away.

-Seriously,nothing to worry.

All this made me gain weight!:X

Haha, this shows i'm too fortunate to have a superb grandmother.She cooks delicious with her best effort & love in the food!:D

She's just so excellent! :P

Not only about food.She cares alot for us.She's a very kind and really strong old lady.Doing household chores is so much tough on her when there's a baby in this home.A very meticulous woman who takes really careful care for her grandchildren.On top of it, despite all the sweats she perspired, she didn't complain.She continues and helped when we're in needs.She nags at times but it's normal.Not easy for her to spend all her energy on 3 kids and also have to ensure she's in good health.Haha!:D

SUPERSUPERSUPER GRANDMOTHER^^

♥ HER TO THE MAX !,

Ageing day by day, but she keeps her vibrant smile & friendly character daily to live on happily.

(Y)

Haha!:D I think i am feeling high nowww.Kinda yeap...Sometime u have to observe, then will u realize.

Okayyy, last time i said a cruel sentence to her , i replied in anger that she was a maid.

FK!, THINKING BACK,I REALLY REGRETTED.Well i guessed i hurt her alot.I made her tear...

Anyway, i will treat her alot better and cause lesser problems to her =]

She always remind me , wakes me up for school though i have the alarm clock.I always talk back and i think i feel so bad at times :X

Oh I think i am now searching my heart, LIKE FINDING SOMETHING BAD AND MAKE MYSELF MORE MOTIVATED TO CHANGE FOR THE BETTER.

Actually not only positive comments can change you but once in a while , negative thoughts might let you :

良心发泄 , y'know ? :)

Oh well, i have no idea what's got into me todayyy :>

Perhaps this is not a bad thing either.

Alright shall stop here :)

SMIL3Z~

My own piece, 6th Aug '10

2010-08-06T22:01:00.000+08:00

--- My own piece ---

"Since you are alive, be glad you are alive.Living in this world is the best gift for yourself.Relish life as if you on some wonderful and amazing ground where you are able to see everything on top of you.Need not be at the highest peak where you look down and fear comes around.Being at the base isn't as bad as u thought, U will feel the same too like u have conquered the world.It's the bottom part that support the whole weight.Stay happy! <3 wholeheartedly and sincerely,u ain't a cat that has 9 lives,so remember to treasure it :)"

Originated by :ZhaoZhen :)

SMIL3Z~

HI, 5th Aug'10

2010-08-05T18:45:00.000+08:00

HI Everyone!:)

I think i am going on the right track... YEAH!:D

Yesterday, did my work for 4 hours +.GREAT ISNT?! ^^
Took a nap before that too for like 2/3 hours? :D

For today, fairly alright :) School wasn't that bad , you know why?
Firstly, there's p.e and whenever there's p.e, on that actual day my bad will be lighter (:
Secondly, lessons were not that heavy, and also today there's YOG's rehearsal for some people.Thus, the last period ( POA) was replaced by SS common test.After which, HSH! :)
Thirdly, I don't think there's anymore reasons, haha!:]

Lunch @ home.Initially i wanted to eat my meal and decided to meet J tomorrow.However i felt that he wanted to meet me too! Hahaha^^ While having my spaghetti, i was kind of rushing for time.I wished to see him that's why.After having 3/4 of it, i stopped eating.Contacted him and off to his house^^ .
Eager to see him! (L) , His grandmother gonna come back soon so i can't stay for that long.Well, we went out of the house after a while and he sent me back.Halfway and he received a call.His grandmother is back but she doesn't have the house key.Funny reaction made by J ^^V !,Cute manxz :P It's okay, he always send me through halfway.Poor thing kays, he didn't have his lunch.Unlike me , Big appetite! ><. Me went to Shop N Save and bought drinks. HSH!:)

Using com right now, but i will study later on!,

When there's MOTIVATION...
Next up will be CONFIDENCE!,
Then you got to PERSEVERE:)

Success will then come along ^^

Hehe:P

Fine, time for dinner :> Bye.

SMIL3Z~

barely 10mins. 2nd Aug '10

2010-08-02T20:52:00.000+08:00

BARELY 10 MINS!,

Life finally, he came over to meet me.Gladdd!, That's of course.Maybe today has a little good luck that falls on me.When he called me back,i was asking my grandmother to help me buy something.he cabbed down and got here in time .however it was just BARELY 10 MINS! :( How i wished, the duration could be extend.Know why so short or not?Grandmother came back very soon.Only managed to see him & like we waited together for grandmother to come back in case something goes wrong.Just want to spend more time together.Well, i'm already used to it.It's dangerous you know,if my grandmother catches me with a guy ,better to prevent then let it happen.I don't want create trouble for myself & him. He went home when i told him they( grandmother & brother)had reached the 12th storey and the lift gonna open soon.Kinda like hiding.Misses him much,few days didn't see him and yet i guess we really do miss each other if not he won't make the effort to come down.Haha can't think too much too,y'know sometimes guys don't goes the way you take things are.It doesn't really matter,he happy then it's fine.

I just felt that i really need MORE TIME for EVERYTHING.
Took an afternoon nap,eye pain:X
Woke up not long ago.(8.30p.m).
3hours but NOT ENOUGH :(

I 'm going really down,but the sight of HIM lifted up my mood! ^^
J's the best still, ,forever & always :)

Okayokay, my day in school was not so bad , i could say.Perhaps reason for some nonsensical stuffs that occurred got a laughter out of me.Anyway, i prefer Monday, guess i am more relaxed.Due to Monday blues, i have to really balance my mood for the day.On the other hand i've got to prepare for the war in the coming days.Meaning after Monday, i am going to stay back after school almost everyday.Though i 've been doing that in the past and it became a routine, i really hope i wouldn't have to.

That's all i guessed.Getting ready for things later on.
CANNOT BE LAZY GIRL!,CONTINUE!!! :)

SMIL3Z~

New day of the new month. 1st Aug '10

2010-08-01T18:36:00.001+08:00

YORHXZ!:D
This is ME! :))
HERE AM I blogging again!!!^^

Firstly to apologize for not updating daily & my days were just SIMPLY ALRIGHT! :]

Slept very early on Friday (30th July '10)

Went down to meet LYA on Saturday (31st July '10)

Headed to meet Eugene.Yeo to study today (1st August '10)

Okay, today was funnyyy!, Morning call for Eugene.Yeo.Got my breakfast quite early as i was an early bird today!Afraid that he would be lost directionally, hehehe:P On the phone with him to reassure that he was at the right place.He alighted a stop later,blur right?Down to Mac to find him.Went back to blocks near my house.Found a suitable place at 570.Did out work there for 3 hours.Off for lunch at Hougang green.Then sent him to bus stop.Drizzling and i forgot to walk the shelter way.Anyway i don't mind so it's fine with me.But so dumb isn't?Hsh later on.Had another meal but not tht much.On the phone with Yong Yee sister ! :) Long and good chat with her! (L) HAHA,Cute sister i have:P Used computer and now year it will be dinner soon.I guessed i am really eating too much:X
Okayokay, tomorrow there's school!~
Shall stop here yeah,overall i am a good girl for today,true? :D
Byebye, will update a better post next time.Bear with me ,common tests are round the corner,
and I REALLY HOPE I CAN DO WELL.Same for the others too! ^^

Good luck to myself and everybody else! :)

Random pics :)

SMIL3Z~

HAPPY.SAD. 29th July'10

2010-07-29T21:14:00.000+08:00

HIHI PEOPLE!:)

School wasn't that great but what i like was :

I RAN 3 ROUNDS FULL FOR MORNING RUN!
I WENT FOR 2.4KM RUN,
& ALL THESE RUNNING MADE ME SO HIGH!
I FELT BETTER AND MY BODY AIN'T THAT STIFF.:)
THE BEST THING IS I DIDN'T STOP WHILE I RUN!:D

OMG~ I saw a guy after sch at blk 572.I dk who is he, looks familiar but i just can't figure it out.Perhaps i don't know him but its just seems we have known each other.Well,he looked at me like wth, eyes big big. haha,okay nvm i walked off.Back homed.Brothers went down so after putting my bag,i went to Shop N Save.Saw that guy again.Took a glance and turned.Haha!, Funny canxz:> Alright,HSH after buying the drink.Had lunch even though i ate it in school before remedial already.On the phone with WSQ.Omg,it has been such a long time since i contact him.Kays,talking to him was fun,however i got somewhat sleepy.Sorry that i don't know why he cried:( GODDD,maybe because of my voice~ T_T. Hope he's fine.I 'm sorry.

Alright, went to meet J around 7.40p.m +.
Haha,LIKE FINALLY!!! (Y)
Didn't stay for very long though,then he went off.
I MISS HIM LOADS MANXZ! :X

Off to Shop N save again.Bought the Jelly powder.Just feel like to make & eat it.Jelly :) Random.Saw that guy again.Well, he's still there all this while.Alright, nvm him.I don't know who is he.Now back and i am using com.Having minor headache.Bored.Feeling like sleeping.I didn't have my dinner. Kays, i gtg now byebye:)

SMIL3Z~

Vanessa.Chow is back!, 26th July'10

2010-07-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

MET THIS GIRL NAMED VANESSA.CHOW! ^^

Happy too the max yeah!,Finally after so LONG, she's BACK! :D
During geography remedial,She just pop out outside the room,
Zhi Xin was so shocked that she shouted !
Scare me canxz?!
GLAD TO SEE HER AGAIN :P
Tour around the school with her together with some Friends.
Compass Point and ate Swensens,(Vanessa.C , Zoe, Zhi Xin went for pizza hut).
After much discussion, some went off first.
The rest of us can't decide so...after that ended up they decide to go Charmaine Ng's house.
I didn't go because i won't know how long will they stay, even so,just a little while ,there's not much.
I can't go home too late either.
After sending them ,seeing them boarding the bus, i went home.
Kinda Nice day with VANESSA.C & Friends!, ^^

Alright, gtg and have my dinner :)
byebye,

Shall meet up with her SOON! :>

SMIL3Z~

something. 26th July'10

2010-07-26T01:23:00.001+08:00

HIIE:D

While clearing my inbox, i found this mail :)

SAGITTARIUS - The Promiscuous One
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found.. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. A loner most of the time. Loses patience easily and will not take crap. If in a bad mood stay FAR away. Gets offended easily and remembers the offense forever.. Loves deeply but at times will not show it, feels it is a sign of weakness. Has many fears but will not show it. VERY private person. Defends loved ones with all their abilities. Can be childish often. Not one to mess with. Very pretty. Very romantic. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, fun and sweet. Have own unique appeal. Most caring person you will ever meet! Amazing in bed..!!! Not the kind of person you want to mess with- you might end up crying..

Alright,my horoscope is Sagittarius so i only copy this part :]

Hehe:P

alright, school will start in 7hours time :(

I am still wide awake not sleeping.

Soon yeap, i will go to bed.

HAHA, shall stop here.
currently it's 1:25a.m on a Sunday midnight.

byebye,

TAG MORE PEOPLE :)

CLICK ON MY ADS TOO.

TYVM:D

SMIL3Z~

HAPPY 4TH BIRTHDAY!, 24th July'10

2010-07-24T23:10:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!:)

Such a pity ,the other cousin,Ryan & parents didn't come,
actually he did (with father), however he went back earlier.

My photos not very nice i know.
I don't really know the skill of taking a good photo.
If the pics hurt your eyes then don't see okay :X

BIRTHDAY BOYYY! ,^^V

END! :)

The time has come... 24th July'10

2010-07-24T18:45:00.000+08:00

Hihihi! My blog gonna be alive :)
Today is my baby bro's birthday.My relatives has arrived.There's a few more to come.Just a couple of relatives yup.Photos will be uploaded later if i have the chance to take any.Haha.Met J around 5 and back at home around 5.45pm.Everytime i meet him, it is only a short while.But worth me for going down just to see him.Not really that far,3 roads away i guess.haha =] I won't find it a troublesome thing to do.Though sometimes it is really very kind of "lazy" to step out of the house.

Alright shall post some thoughts when i was on my way back after meeting him.

Each time i cross the road , it would seem that it's my father's road.Haha,i cross it slowly and won't really care if i have take note of safety.I don't know.While walking....

" When i say YES means YES..When i say NO means NO..What if i am caught in dilemma?! Should i say I DON'T KNOW? That's what i always respond to but it doesn't seem effective.How do i disagree with someone/something then...I will be very determined for certain things that i want.However sometimes it is really in a situation that i can't handle well.
Here is my idea that came to my mind naturally after those thoughts, I WILL SHOW/PROVE TO YOU that i really don't want something/insisting on getting hold of one thing.Don't be feel sad/bad if i rejected your ideas or anything.I am just so cruel when things are like this.I have promised myself not to do things that will make me suffer.I don't any pain, but one won't always get things dome smoothly because it is just like :

When i cross the road, i seem to be so brave thinking that nothing would happen.I didn't seem to care about anything else and just cross the road daringly.If luck is down on me,i might not even know if i would be knocked down by any vehicles that came while i wasn't becareful and didn't look out as i cross.
( touchwood*)

In life, there's always happy and sad moments.Bitter, sweet ,sour or spicy...You got to decide yourself.Somehow,some things are just planned as it is and you must expect for the unexpected.
Never regret for your choice, even you don't want do see the results ,but what done is done.

One must face the consequences for the acts.Learn and let go .Forgive and forget.Don't broad it when it's over.Miracle will happen if you BELIEVE IN YOURSELF.BE CONFIDENCE!Start to walk on the RIGHT PATH where YOUR AIM is directed at.You know you can, only whether if YOU WANT or not.

LIFE CAN GET BETTER DAY BY DAY... little things you do might even create a special atmosphere,start NOW!I KNOW I WILL LIVE HAPPILY.

So next , think of what you can do.If you're not interest in something, learn and cultivate the interest.You will get to love it more and mentally you will do it eventually with passion.Be passionate and get life going!^^V

Hahaha!, there's more i can say but i guess i should stop here.Thanks to my aunty,talked to her on the phone in the evening and i really know she cares for me.Her words seems to influence and motivate me somehow.Well,communication is important.But i don't like to talk.I am postitive but when i talk to somebody,friends,teachers,family i tend to become negative because i don't like to tell personal feelings.As i am typing this ,reflected back to the first day where Mrs Franklin ( English teacher) came and told us to write about what we want to be and about how to improve english lesson ,etc.I simply gave a very simple and short answer.Didn't elaborate much and it seems that i ain't interested in her lesson.Well, thinking about that,i realized one must have a positive mindset.Even you're not interested but still have to show that you there , in school to learn.Try your best to be attentive and do whatever the teacher instructed.Because all this will only benefits you as you take in all the knowledge that teachers pass down during lesson time.

I CAN IF I WANT & I WILL!!! :D

ALRIGHT,I 'm done,=)

Any comments? i would really like you to tell me your views on my post.Thanks :)

Byebye,

SMIL3Z~

Weekend arrived!, 23rd July'10

2010-07-23T20:35:00.000+08:00

HI ! ^^

I am back ! :D Has been neglecting my blog for a few days and yet i am just typing this reluctantly for blog's sake.I need some space to release everything and blogging just came to my mind.This is the right path!:]

Finally, weekend is arriving after much tiredness during school days:(
Eventually this day will come ,so i will make use of these two days to rest & re-organize myself properly.
Every single moment, i have been wishing for a day that i could daydream all day long~
But i doubt so, it will be so wasted if i do that.Seriously how i wish yeah!~ ><.

Days after days, weeks after weeks, months after months, a year is ending soon in 4 months time.How fast time flies ,you will experience if you try to observe you own life and compare with the time going on and on without stopping ...

Treasure every moment and live the days to fullest, don't regret for not giving yourself a chance to grab happiness because one must be happy in living orelse everything is not worthy at all.

YOU'RE NOT ALONE :)

Alright, shall stop crapping so much.
Oral was fine today,such a pity i didn't tell the examiner my personal experience for both Chinese & english oral.Wasted manxz.But forget it ,it's over~

Tag please , kindly click on the "ZZ's Tagboard" on the left. ( tagboard dying ~ )
Thank you:)

SMIL3Z~

Vexed. 20th July'10

2010-07-20T18:22:00.000+08:00

How deep can this trap be? I really don't want to sink any further...my choice,my way,my future, Only I, Myself can decide what i want.The answer...must be somewhere waiting for me to find out personally :X Confidence is eveything, i can't let this tear me apart so easily.JIAYOUS! :)

No matter what i have to stay strong, i am such a disappointment TO MYSELF.I want to prove nothing else, but just to myself that i can do what i really want.I know i can but i just can't put my words into actions.

Such a moody day, i am not stress or what but i am so vexed.I've been thinking ALOT,and seriously it's making me so crazy~

ALOT meaning>>>

A (singular) LOT (abundant)

A + LOT = ALOT and it's way too much , too high for me to reach.

Moodswings :(

Time is never slow for we have to catch up with it ,always!,

It is moving forward as the clock ticks every secs to an hour,then a day will pass and it will be a lifetime. It doesn't stop! :]

Even no one gonna believe me, I WILL STILL BELIEVE IN MYSELF!,

I don't feel well for today,seriously,dozing away during poa lesson,During GCE 'O' lvl Chinese LC exam, i didn't really concentrate much.Skipped cca too.I 'M DONE THIS TIME ROUND.

Forget it!

I WILL PICK MYSELF UP FROM WHERE I FALL :)

Okay shall end my post here , nothing more to say.Not in good mood either.Study time!:D

SMIL3Z~

Monday. 19th July '10

2010-07-19T19:02:00.000+08:00

YOYOYO!, I'M BACKKK^^V

Garfield oh Garfield!!! :D

Haha!:)

I cannot delay anymore...
Today's fine, just fine y'know^^
Tmr's gonna be chaos,
tests are coming up VERY soon~

I am still using com , not revisinggg :(
Just srsly so not prepared for it.
Well, i will start to study later on kays.
Hehe:P

Strolling away ....
That's the pace when i'm on my way for chemistry lesson today:]
Just NOT very excited for the lesson.
Its normal actually .Just after a quick recess that made me full & lethargic, followed by maths and Chemistry lesson was the next.There's some kind of sleepy feeling.

Okayokay, back homed after school!
GREAT~
Monday is usually alright, because i DON'T have to stay back!^^

Well homed and etc.
Now heading to have my dinner , 7:02p.m
Hungryyy, bye~
GOOD LUCK TO MYSELF & EVERYONE FOR TMR TESTS!

SMIL3Z~